Always~ r5 fanfic

Chapter 30

By the time I had a shower and changed Rydel was sitting on my bed with a tray of warm tea and some pizza. Not something I'd usually mix but I'm starving and cold so I'm up for anything. I sat on my bed and dug into the odd mixture, savoring their tastes.

After a few minutes of me stuffing my face Rydel spoke. "Do you wanna talk about it?" She asked so cautiously I thought she was expecting me to hit her or something. I sighed and put down my half eaten slice of pizza.

I began to explain everything, from me leaving the concert to when I walked in the door. "Oh..so, you do love Riker?" Rydel asked, totally overloaded with information. I laughed and smiled. "Yeah I do, a lot." Rydel smiled, released a squeal and hugged me really hard. "My big bros love loves him!" She squealed, I blushed and smiled.

The door opened behind us and Ross came in looking sheepish. "We may have a little problem with the Riker situation.." He said awkwardly. "Were you listening to us talk?" I asked him, not really mad. "Um.. Just the last part. But um anyways... So I told Riker you were here and okay and he um...he said he didn't care." Ross didn't look at me, which is a good thing since I felt like I was punched in the heart.

"Ross could you give us privacy please?" Rydel asked, ushering Ross out of the room. "Actually del, I think.. I need some time by myself to figure all of this out." I said, now ushering them both out. As I closed my door I caught a glimpse of Riker going back into his room. His hair was a mess, his face and eyes were red and puffy. His cheeks were tear stained, I realized then that my plan of walking in and apologizing wouldn't fix this.

I closed my door and could feel the shame and heartache fall on me, I had hurt Riker and not a little but a LOT. He's crushed and it's my fault, my perfect little Riker reduced to tears. I could feel my own tears falling down my dry cheeks. They began to fall faster when I thought of what he may think of me, he may not love me anymore, he may hate me and he'll probably get so much hate.. No wait, I'll get the hate.

I broke his heart, I left him to play through a concert with a broken heart, I Emily Smith..broke Riker lynch.