Always~ r5 fanfic

Chapter 31

The nest morning I was up early to make everyone's favorite breakfast foods, mainly Riker's. Everyone came down around 10, right as I finished dishing up the rest of the food. We all sat down and ate, Riker didn't look at me, he didn't speak to me or about me. With every ignored second it felt like a knife across my arm. "Um..Riker, remember we have filming today." I said across the table. Riker gave a quick nod but nothing more.

An hour and a very long drive later we finally reached the location where we'd be filming today. We were at a beach for a scene which, to keep it short, goes like this.

(Emma is at the beach on her day off, she sun bathes when someone trips over her)

(Emma and brad get in a huge argument over whos fault it was then end up talking and hanging out)

We filmed those scenes, as soon as the director called "cut" riker was cold as ice towards me. I couldn't figure out what to do... What to say, I needed to try SOMETHING to get through to Riker. Instead i just drive us home in silence. Praying I'd get some miraculous idea to win Riker over again.. I can't do something big since... Well we know how well the last time..

I can't do something small since... Well a small gesture wouldn't work, I've done to much damage.

I wish I could rewind to the day of the concert, so I could just not go and Riker would never have had his heart broken. Then.. I wouldn't have had mine broken either.. A tear slipped from my eye as I drove, I quickly wiped it away, hoping Riker didn't see.

Riker's POV

My heart wrenched at the sight of Emily crying, I knew it must have been my doing but... No. I have to stay strong, as soon as the movie is over we're gone. I just need to keep silent that long.. No matter how much it kills me.

We drove in the driveway and i got out of the car, just for a second in the corner of my eye, it looked like emily was going to say something. but when i turned towards her she looked away and got out of the car.

i don't like being made at people, i dont, i never have and now isn't any better. emily went straight to the kitchen like aways, i went an sat on the couch with my family. Ross sent me a withering look. "What?" i asked him as i kicked off my shoes. ross sighed. "You don't even see how much you're hurting her do you?" he snapped, i looked at my hands. "you don't get it ross. Its... i don't have to explain this to you!" i spat at him before running upstairs.

i collapsed on my bed and groaned into the comforter, it smelled like emily, i flipped over and stared at the ceiling. i think back to when i kissed her... the smell of Emily's hair, the feel of her lips.. ill never feel those again, i cant. i cant be here with her, she...she.. UGH! i dont even know why i cant stay here anymore, maybe its the constant reminder of my rejection.

i hear a door slam downstairs, the front door. i turn over and look out the window to see emily running to the car, crying. my heart shreds at the sight, what on earth happened?!