Always~ r5 fanfic

Chapter 36

They stabilized Emily an hour later. But she was asleep due to the heavy duty pain meds she was put on.

Three days later she woke up.

"Riker!" She screamed, waking up with wide eyes as she began to cry. I ran over to her and held her as tightly as I could without hurting her. "Riker...Riker..Riker.." Was all she could say, my name over and over as she cried into my chest. I let her cry it out, it took her four hours of crying to finally calm down.

I could feel the wall I had built up against Emily break down. Stone by stone for every second I held her. When she finally calmed down enough that the tears stopped, I pulled away. "R-Riker? Where are you going?" She sniffled, her eyes red and her face puffy from crying. Still beautiful. "I-I gotta go." I said in the strongest voice I could, but every syllable was a cut to my skin.

I walked out of the room and saw my family sitting, wide eyed. I looked at my shoes and sat down beside Ross. Rydel got up and went in with Rocky. After a few minutes Ross spoke. "We....thought you'd be in there until she was better." He said softly, looking at his shoes. "Well I guess you guys were wrong then." I said flatly.

"But Riker..you love her." He said, finally looking me In the eyes. "Well, you're wrong again. I'm don't, not anymore."

Emily's POV

Riker left, he left me on the verge of tears in a hospital bed! I sigh as Rocky and Rydel come in. "Don't you guys. Just don't." I said, trying not to cry in front of Rocky. "You guys need to leave." I said, staring at my lap as I laid back in my bed. "Okay, we'll come back tomorrow." Rocky said, looking a bit nervous. "No. You guys need to leave. Go back on tour, get on with your lives." I sighed, trying not to cry. My very being wanted to be with them and be part of their lives but I knew better.

"B-but-." Rydel started, her eyes wide. "No, you guys need to just leave. It's okay if Riker quits the movie. You need to get on with the tour and on with your lives." I said sternly. Rydel had her mouth open, she opened and closed it as if to speak but nothing came out. Rocky looked on the verge of tears.

"You need to go. I-I want you guys gone before I get out of here." I choked on the words, Rydel nodded and left. Rocky looked down at his shoes. "I'm gonna miss you you know. You're like my sister." He said, looking back up at me, his face streaked with tears. "And you guys are my brothers. And Riker... As long as he's happy I'm happy." I said, forcing a smile. Rocky gave me a pitiful look before swooping down and giving me a hug.

I hugged back as hard as I could, softly crying into his shoulder. I felt more arms around me as the rest of the lynch boys hugged me, Rydel too. I took a deep breath in my nose, wanting to remember them, remember this, remember how it felt to be so fully encompassed in love. Odds are, this is the most love I'll ever receive at one time and the loss of it may be more fatal than the car crash.