la collection 2

6. Promise

Promise

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Next week the initiation is over. You need to tell Eric the truth before it, so you'll know how to move on. The bad guy isn't that bad around you and the worse just happened. You fell in love with him. Against all your friends, who keep telling you to keep away, you fell for him. Wholeheartedly. As you dry your hair with a soft towel, staring at your image in the mirror, Eric comes to your mind. Why does he gotta be a jerk to everyone else but you? Is he just messing with your mind?

"(Y/N), let's go, we'll be late." Lana calls you from the door frame and you quickly follow her, thankful for having something else to think about.

After your Fear Simulation, you walk back to the Training Room. This is how it works from now on, Stage One is permanent. To improve the fighting skills even more. But you don't care, you like it. When you hit your target, you hear him. Eric's small laugh as he comes closer.

"Very good." You avoid eye contact, even though you love his eyes. "How was your Fear Simulation?"

"It was fine. It's almost done." Giving him a short answer, you walk to get your knives. You feel that he's waiting for you to say something else, but you keep your mouth shut.

"(Y/N), what is it?" His low voice kinda hurt your heart. Is he sad or something? Can Eric be sad?

"Nothing, why?

"There's nobody listening, why are you ignoring me?" Eric grabs your arm, forcing you to drop the knife you were aiming. "What's wrong with you?"

"What do you want me to say, Eric?" You push him away violently, making him roll his eyes.

"I want you to tell me what the hell is going on with you today." Grabbing you by your shoulders, he pulls you close, eyes locked on yours. "I'm not good at this. You have to..."

Then someone else comes. There's a guy being carried and four others helping him. The Fear Simulation can take you down just like this. One day you walk out, bravely heading back to the Training Room. The other, you need to be carried around, panic all over your face. That makes your heart break.

You did have your share of panic attacks, right in the begging of Stage Three. But there he was, helping you get back on your feet. Eric never allowed anyone else to get too close.

Before they can see you and Eric so close, you step back, taking the knives back. When did you drop them? You can't remember. Eric usually makes you forget things. His eyes washed away half of your worries, bringing out feelings you can't understand.

"I... I need to speak with you, yes, but not here." You mutter, hitting the target furiously.

"Here, take this." Eric hands you a small dark box. High-tech, probably one of Erudite's new invention. There are a few buttons and a little screen. "It's connected with my wristwatch. Press the green button and I'll meet you."

"Right." Scared of losing your courage, you sigh. "Meet me on that corner near the cafeteria tonight. The one with a dead end. Do you know where it is?"

"Of course I do. No matter how late it is, I'll be there." With one last glance, he walks away, and my heart already misses him.

How can you be so in love?

The alley is pretty cold, but you're shaking because you're nervous. Well, you're way beyond nervous.

You've been pressing the stupid green button again and again, hoping that he'll hear it even though his sleep.

When you're about to give up and go back to get some sleep, Eric shows up at the corner, forcing you to step back into the alley.

"I thought you wouldn't come, I've been waiting for like forty minutes."

"(Y/N), it's 4:03 am." His voice is heavy with sleep, but he sounds like home.

Wait. You can't allow him to mean something so important to you. No way. Eric isn't in love with you and he'll probably just vanish any day. Closing your eyes to steady your heartbeat, you tug on your sleeves to gather courage.

"Sorry, I would call you before breakfast but I couldn't wait." You're thankful for the darkness, or else Eric would see you're blushed cheeks. "Eric, I'm... It's just that I'm..."

"Just say it, (Y/N), you can trust me."

Eric sounds honest, kind. You don't know what to think anymore. "Initiation is already over and I need to know what'll happen between..."

"(Y/N), just say it." He takes both your hands in his, those blue eyes locked in yours. They look so beautiful, even in this dim light.

"I may or may not love you. I'm still thinking about it since you'll probably break my heart." You say all of a sudden, closing your eyes shut so you won't see the expression on his face. You can hear your own heartbeat and that's pretty weird.

"May or may not?" Before you can open your eyes, you feel his lips on yours.

Try to resist it would be stupidity. You wrap your arms around his neck, smiling through the kiss. You pull away when you hear footsteps and hide against the wall. Once they're gone, you can't help but let a small giggle escape.

"Well, I think we're good." Eric pulls you close to peck your lips. "Now, go get some sleep. You'll have a long day tomorrow."

"Yeah, I know..."

"I'll be there. When you're done with initiation we won't have to hide." Eric takes a look on the corridor, gesturing you to go. "I'm not going to break your heart. I promise." He whispers in your ear when you walk past him, just to bring another smile to your lips.

"See ya around." You mutter back, rushing back to your dormitory, thinking about the new life in Dauntless and happy to know that Eric will be part of it.

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