Poetry: Symmetry and Reflections

Of Love And Fear

I cherish every second when you're near

But I must confess I have many a fear

Some are silly, some understandable

Some, I'm just not sure how to handle

I want so much the best for you

But there's so many things I just can't do

So many things out of my control

And what if all I do is void and null?

Most of all I wish to be near

For every concern, worry, to wipe away any tear

To offer advice through crucial moments

To not always have this is my lament

It's gotten better for me, over time

You're the best story I've ever written, every word and every line

My blood, my pride and joy, a cherished treasure

Sometimes these two weeks feels like forever

I try best not to think about it

But in my mind and heart I just can't silence it

Everyday small details remind me of you

I can try to deny but it's all too true

You're far underwater in the depths of my mind

But somehow, someway you resurface in time

I can feel it plaguing me until I can't ignore

And acknowledge that I still feel this sore

At times, fake smiles and laughs masks my sorrow

So I hold on to that I'll see you tomorrow

I just want more for you that I just can't give

And give you the best life that you could live

To always be the one you run to for comfort

To fix your heart or anything of hurt

To be the rock you can lean on in times of grim

To hold you up when you sink and can't swim

To encourage you in moments when you're feeling doubt

To be an oasis when you're in drought

To love you unconditionally, how He loved us first

To shepherd you through times of good and moreso, of worse

So help me to face all of these fears

Because on my own, I can't do any of these

I want to be a mighty hurricane

But feel I'm only some gentle breeze

I fear that I'll let you down

By not being who I need to be

I'll not stop fighting these fears unknown

Overcome this insecurity

So I'll not give up no matter odds

Bury again this ghost

That's haunting me, telling me

That I'll never come even close

And remember I'll do all that I can do

To love and show every chance

Love the way a father should

In every trial or circumstance

So in it all, I know I can get through

Take worry and fear in stride

Never cease to love and show you what it means

To love unceasing and be fully alive

And no matter what happens, as each day goes by

My love will stay until my well of life is dry