Poetry: Symmetry and Reflections

Fail

When every mistake hits so hard
When i find fault in every word that's said
Moments of insignificance seems so much bigger
Frustration at efforts that hold no worth
This I know, yet feel like a failure

When i think of when i didn't take that risk
Or when i gave up too soon
When i stayed and should have gone
When i hesitated instead of facing head on
Focusing on what could have, should have
Not getting out of my mind
Feeling as a failure

Feeling nothing and everything at once
Pulled everywhere as if on a torture rack
Stretched so thin but covering no ground
Where can my peace be found?
Your silent voice is the only sound
And so i feel i've failed you

Can't understand why this wears me so thin
Builds a hole deep to throw me in
No matter my finesse, skill, or tact
i'm trying to move forward, instead sliding back
And again feel like a failure

This anger dragging me in
This battle i cannot win
Screaming at myself within
Taunting me, remind me
How i've gone astray
i've fallen into the fray
How can you love such a failure
i just can't comprehend
Someone or something please take me away
i feel like such a failure, fading away