Poetry: Symmetry and Reflections

Why Me?

My thoughts used to consume me
of things in which I failed
I wandered and pondered on what I lost
and on all the ships that already sailed
I felt blind, wandering about
for there was no good to see
I cried out to God to take it away
and so I asked , "Why Me?"

My emotions again have tossed me about
I'm overwhelmed , with so much to lose
I feel like I'm worn out and torn up inside
by the one who said "I do"
I've lost all trust in the one I trusted most
in the one who should be beside me
how could He allow me so much pain
and again I ask Him, "Why me?"

My heart has been ripped out and dashed to the rocks
I'll never be the same person again
she threw me away without a second glance
I thought she was my very best friend
betrayed by the one I thought I knew
who had my heart under lock and key
I throw my hands up into the air
and ask more angrily, "Why me?"

I felt that I tried and did my best
to love her and keep her at my side
yet my own efforts were to no avail
nothing was good enough to satisfy
I don't know what's happening and how I got here
my expectations have lied to me
I hang my head low, and scream at the walls
and demand to know, "Why me?"

Then I look at the cross, and count the cost
and see the love you poured out and shed for me
I can't understand , let alone comprehend
how you took the blame for me
I'm guilty on all counts, a thief, a liar,
a cheat, a criminal, it's plain to see
I watched in horror as they dragged you away
the scapegoat they're punishing should be me
hands shaking, my shackles fell off of my hands
I was told that I was now free
this whole situation just makes no sense
and I thought to myself differently, "Why me?"

You forgive my wrongs, no matter how many times
and want all the best there is for my life
you carried the cross along with my shame
and empathize with all my strife
no matter how many steps I take away
you're always one step behind me
how can you love me, and think so much of me,
I'm begging to know, "Why me?"

A love so big it extends all existence
one bigger than my mind can grasp
my heart knows nothing of how great it is
to love unconditionally and be everlast
I truly don't deserve any good so
I'll take any bit that you give to me
I'll stop asking why and accept bad with the good
and learn to let you live within me