Fall From Grace

Chapter Twenty One

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Chapter Twenty One

Monday classes dragged on and I could not wait to get back to bed. My blankets and pillows are calling my name, Avery and I have been texting, so that has been a good distraction but hasn't really made me feel better. The people I want to talk to aren't people I can talk to right now.

Yelling and kicking Sterling out, only made all of this ten times worse. Maybe I shouldn't have acted that way but I felt extremely hurt. I'm not sure why it hurt that much but it did. And with all of my unanswered questions about Olympus, I have so many more about Sterling.

It is really suspicious that he was there Halloween night. What am I supposed to think? All these changes, it is easier to push everyone away then to keep making excuses for why I should keep them around.

Sterling lied to me about literally every single thing about himself, and that is a tough pill to swallow. But I've had the day to think, and I'm treating Sterling exactly the same way Vivian is treating me. I'm not hearing him out because I am upset. Granted I have the right to, but if I continue on with that type of thinking, then I have to accept Vivian's shutting me out, and I refuse to do that.

My finger hovers over the call button, but I can't do it. I'm still too raw. Even if Sterling were telling the truth, there is still so much I need to sort through.

Gods are real. Cults exist. This is my life.

But I lied when I said I got the energy to be angry at him, I don't. All I want to do is call him. Despite all the lies, I still feel drawn to him. I want to tell him about my discovery that something is going on in Kappa Sig, and how the Delta Zeta house seems perfectly normal.

Sterling has an allure to him, perhaps that is part of his Godly power: his charm.

I put my phone down beside me and get some studying done before forcing myself to go to sleep. Tuesday passes by the same way. I go to class. I get back into bed. I hesitate over Sterling's contact, but never press call. I do some studying. I force myself to sleep. It's harder to get out of my own head Tuesday night, so I take a melatonin to help.

By Wednesday, I am fed up of that routine. It feels mechanical and stale, and is getting me nowhere closer to solving this cult. Realistically, routine or not, I am at an impasse because I have no idea how else to get an in with them, or find out where and when they meet.

That is the issue with secret societies.

When they were first created, before Greek-Letter Organizations, they were for learning and discussing topics that the colonial colleges at the time banned from their curriculum. If they were found out, they'd be expelled, so secrecy was of utmost importance. They took extreme measures in order to keep their secrecy.

When Greek-Letter organizations came about in the 1800s, they adopted the same code of secrecy. When new members are initiated, they have to swear to keep the organization's rituals sacred and secret. If someone in your organization found out you revealed the organization's secrets to someone outside of your organization, it is grounds for disaffiliation. It is safe to assume that the cult would hold the same standard, especially if members are from Greek Life.

I can only find out more if I have an in, but who knows what the punishment would be for revealing the cult's secrets. I bet it is something horrible, like death. I can't risk putting Avery in that danger.