Painting this canvas with the colors of our love

Why did I forget?

I heard the door open behind me, my heart started beating so fast I couldn't even breath so i just turned around.
Holy shit, bad, bad idea. She is heaven, oh god.
"I- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to touch anything... I was just..." I said trembling
"Oh don't even say that... This is yours, you created it, none could be more entitled than you to touch it" she said while she was stepping beside me. I felt so anxious she was so close I could have touched her but I forced myself to keep control of the situation.
"Oh god I think I have no manners" I said visibly embarrassed "I am Sylvia, I guess they already told you, but... well here I am" reaching out to greet her. She was looking straight into my eyes, I couldn't handle that view but I tried and did my best 'till she said "It's a pleasure to meet you Sylvia" she said softly shaking my hand.
First contact, good one, now please stay calm.
She turned her eyes away from me and on the painting. How I wish I could read her mind in that very moment. She remained silent for a while looking at the painting and I was just going through an internal war: whether to say something or not? And if so, what? But then she solved all of my doubts saying "When I first saw this I knew you were... singular". Was it a compliment? I wasn't sure how to feel at that moment.
"I mean" she added while turning at me again "I knew you were not like the others..."
I don't really know if I'm getting you right even though I'm trying, Sarah.
"I'm not sure I'm getting you right..." I tried to make her understand I wasn't following her, at all.
"Ok for example you didn't freak out when I walked into the room" she said.
Yes because I was literally dying inside, but you don't need to know that.
"Ok people may do that but I think this is frightening, and strange, and embarrassing, and... I would never do that." I said explaining myself.
"Told you you were different" She said "I mean they're beautiful and extremely supporting and I love to take pictures and stories and signing their phone covers and receive their mail but sometimes it is just too much, too suffocating" she explained like she was getting rid of a burden.
I wasn't sure what to say... All things considered I was part of them, I was her fan too.
"I am not sure what to say Sarah, if I can call you that..."
"'Course you can"
"...I mean I am just saying I am one of them, I am here with you now because I am one of your fans... I am not different from them, I put an effort in doing this just for you because I wanted to see you, I wanted to talk to you even if it was for a couple of minutes and never again".
Ew, oversentimental, she's going to be disgusted.
"You know... maybe you're right... I don't know what it's like to be on your side..."
She was still talking but I couldn't hear her properly because I couldn't focus on her words, my head spinning again.
SHIT.
"Sylvia..." I heard Sarah saying "Are you okay?" She asked holding me up.
Shit stay alive Sylvia.
I sat down on a chair I had previously seen not distant from where we were standing. Sarah was on her knees in front of me holding my hand tight. It felt strange but so good.
"Can I do anything for you?"
"Yes actually you can... Please tell someone to go to my room..." I said trying to focus on my breath "on my bed there's a dose of insulin" as i said so the look in her eyes completely changed and I knew that look very well... I was used to it. Then she ran at the door and told someone to do what I had asked for and in a minute she was back beside me rubbing my back to comfort me.
You're scaring her you stupid asshole... why did you forget...
She was now caressing my hair and if I hadn't been so near to coma I would have thought it was a beautiful sensation to feel her hands on my hair.
I closed my eyes just for one second and suddenly heard her say "Hey, no no no, don't you dare close your eyes again young lady" she said clearly worried.
A few seconds before passing out someone finally got me my insulin and i took the final struggle not to faint.
"Maybe you should turn to the other side if it scares you" I managed to say.
She didn't turn around. She just waited a few seconds sizing the situation.
"You're about to die but still worry for me to 'turn around if I'm scared' and you're brave enough to say you're not different" she joked, probably to see how I was doing without asking. I smiled trying to reassure her.
"Would you please tell me what happened, now?" She asked sitting in front of me and looking straight into my eyes like she had done before making me shiver.
"I have diabetes." I stated clearly trying to appear calm. She was still looking into my eyes but I couldn't handle her sad look anymore so I lowered my eyes as I continued "I guess skipping two meals wasn't the best thing I could do, you know no eating, physical stress and so on... fatal combination" I said trying to defuse.
"Oh don't even say that, I don't want to think about it" she said with an hand on her forehead and her eyes closed.
"Okay, I'm sorry I was just... I don't know maybe I was just being stupid, but I'm okay now" I said holding her hand like she had done for me.
"Are you sure?" She asked, "Obviously I am" I said without a doubt.
I thought I had convinced her because she checked the time on her phone and jumped down the chair she has been sitting on and says "Oh my God, Ryan will kill me this time... I have to go I didn't want it to end like this. I know it is probably my fault you felt like this today, too much stress in one day... I want to make you forgive me"
As if I could be mad at you...
"Sarah, it is not necessary, you don't have any fault in this... It is just my body not working as it should"
"I don't think so.. Anyway now that I know your problem I have to make sure you are safe while you're here and also we didn't finish our talk so I would be very happy if you decided to have dinner with me tomorrow" She proposed.
I couldn't believe my own ears, it felt like daydreaming so I hurried answering "It would be... fantastic to have dinner with you tomorrow even though you don't have to do this..." I sad lowering my eyes.
"I know, I just want to" she says handing me her phone "type your number I'll let you know time and place".
Am I really going to give my phone number to Sarah Paulson? I thought while typing and checking my number two or three times before giving her phone back.
"So see you tomorrow" She said blushing as she walked out the room.
"See you tomorrow, Sarah" I replied watching the door closing.
I walked out the room from another door because I felt like bumping on her again would have been tricky and I just wanted to go back to my room, have something for dinner and then go to sleep... The whole day had already been hard enough so I just lay in my bed checking my phone for the very first time that day.
Found a lot of texts from my parents wondering if i had disappeared so I tried texting them back with the hotel WiFi since my internet connection didn't work.
"Sorry for the absence I had been feeling very tired, I'll have dinner with Sarah tomorrow" I typed quickly
I didn't expect for them to reply this fast but I had just gotten out of the bathroom ready to go to sleep when I heard my phone ringing
"Are you sure everything is under control?" Said my mother.
"Yes mum! Just a little jet legged you know it hits me hard everytime" I defused.
"Ok, have fun at your dinner tonight, sleep tight love" she finally wrote so I just went to bed and I fell asleep in less than a minute.
I swear there will be more exciting stuff to come I think these chapters are just an introduction to what will come later, anyway I hope you like this second part better and that I didn't mess to much with my terrible English writing skills 😂🏳️‍🌈😍