Painting this canvas with the colors of our love

You're with me now

*SMUT WARNING* If you don't like reading this kind of things maybe just wait for the next chapter or... skip that part (?)

As soon as I stopped the car in the parking lot she duly asked "You never fail to amaze me, where the hell are we?"
"Uhm that's just a small flat of my parents they used to rent, a few months ago a girl studying at university was staying here, but then she graduated and left" I explained "And fortunately my father always leaves the key in the car otherwise he would always forget them" I said shaking the keys in front of her smiling.
"This was just luck" she said diminishing what I had done but I had already noticed the look she had sent me just a moment before.
"Maybe it was" I said shrugging my shoulders "I don't care, so are you coming or nah?" I said glancing at her.
She just got out the car and we walked in silence until we reached the elevator, as soon as the door shut she pinned me to the wall and kissed me, the atmosphere was getting hot fast but then the elevator reached the floor faster and Sarah pulled away from me just in time fortunately because there was a lady with two little boys waiting in front of the elevator's door. We slid past them making our way to the door "Anyway, sorry, it's just a little bit of Sally that pops out every once in a while" she giggled once they were gone.
"Just admit I'm so hot you couldn't resist" I challenged her.
We got inside and I locked the door, just in case.
"Maybe I'll stop collecting souls now that I've found my soulmate" she said playing Sally pinning me to the wall again licking my earlobe. I grabbed her by the hips pushing her against me and crashed my lips into Sarah's as we stumbled our way across to the bed, never breaking the kiss. I couldn't keep my hands off her, I unbuttoned the shirt she was wearing revealing her toned stomach, slipped it off her and to the ground, she gently unzipped my jeans and they fell to the ground quite easily so I just had to step out of them.
Now we were both completely naked. I pulled the silk white covers over us and began running my hand down Sarah's amazing body. I ran my finger inside and rubbed her nub, teasingly. I kissed down her neck and rubbed a little faster, causing her to moan and me to smirk. I kept a reasonable speed and rhythm as she whimpered and moaned into my mouth as I kissed her I pecked all the way down her body until I reached her core and began working on her with my tongue instead.
"Oh... babe..." she said breathy as she gripped onto the bed sheets.
I flicked my tongue faster as Sarah's moans became more intense. I knew she was close. My hands were gripping her thighs as her legs quivered. She unclenched her fist from the sheets and ran her fingers through my hair tugging it. I ran my hand up her and toyed with her breasts, enhancing her pleasure.
"S-Sylvia... I'm... uhmmm... oh my G-goood!"
There it was... I had successfully made her reach her highest. I kissed her clit one last time causing her to shake a little and crawled back to her side.
"This was so damn good.." she whispered in my mouth as I kissed her.
"Good to know this babe" I smiled as I heard those words because it was really the only thing that mattered to me.
"I love you Sylvia"  she slightly moans coming on top of me.
"Mmh good to know this too, I love you more" I said kissing her while she removed my soaked underwear, she then kissed around my stomach and in between my legs teasing me a little. "Babe." I said faintly. She stopped feasting me and licked me. "Mmmm." I moaned as my hands clenched the sheets.
"You're so sexy." She says with a sexy tone. Sarah then moved her tongue in circular motions. All I could do was moan. She plunged her tongue inside me. "Oh my gosh..." I gasped with pleasure.
Her digits were going in and out me. The sensation of her fingers and her mouth kissing my clit, made my legs shake. As the moment was coming, I cried of pleasure. My whole body shook and let out a long, deep moan. She unlocked her lips from my center when I finally came, then started kissing her way up to my face. She kissed my belly, my breasts, neck, chin, and then... my lips. I hold her tight and throw my arms around her back.
"I'm so madly deeply in love with you" I whispered to her face, our foreheads leaning against each other.
"Good to know" she giggled quoting me "I love you more".
We cuddled in bed for a couple of hours when the moment to go home to get ready for the night came, I got up first and got dressed quite fast while I was waiting for Sarah I sat on the window sill and lit up a cigarette, I didn't use to smoke daily but sometimes I just did without thinking about it, it felt good even though I knew smoking is bad.
I sucked in deeply, holding the smoke until it pinched my throat, it helped me to relax my mind and regain my concentration, even though I tried not to show it in order not to cause concern in the others around me and especially in Sarah. That morning's visit had not convinced me. Since I no longer trusted my body I had learned to feel any change and at the moment there was really something that did not convince me but I did not know what it was and only time could have made me understand.
"What the fuck... what's wrong babe?" Obviously she had seen me smoking only in my worst moments.
"Nothing babe, it was just my post-sex cigarette" I joked and put out the cigarette.
"I know there's something you're not telling me..." she said seriously locking her eyes with mine.
"Everything's okay Sarah, just relax babe" I said placing a quick kiss on her lips "So... are you ready?" I asked letting the argument fall.
"Yes..." she said but she was still looking at me with a look I couldn't decode.
"Let's go then" I said smiling and grabbing my bag.
The rest of the journey in the car went by pretty silently as she probably was overthinking about what I hadn't told her before. She wouldn't even respond if I tried building some kind of conversation so I didn't know what to do anymore.
When we got back home she just went upstairs saying she needed a shower and locked herself in the bathroom before I could talk to her. I just sat on the bed waiting for her to come out fighting the need of another cigarette just because I didn't know what she could've said if she had seen me.
When she came out of the bathroom the situation didn't seem to have improved because she was still ignoring me making me go crazy.
"Sarah please, will this thing last long? why are you doing it, what do you think I'm hiding from you?" I asked her but my voice cracked just at the end of the sentence, damn, almost did it. But maybe this was my luck because she finally spoke to me.
"That's what I feel like..." she paused taking a breath "that's exactly what I feel like when one moment we're totally fine, maybe joking, maybe we have just made love but then I don't know what happens in there you run away into your mind and into the things you don't want to say and I can't reach you anymore"
"Oh my God... really, what do you want me to say exactly?" I was angry but I was trying to hold it back just so that maybe if we had kept talking about it we could have sorted that shit out.
"Nothing..." she shook her head in despair drying her tears "but I came here for you so if you really don't need me here I'm leaving" she looked at me.
"What the hell... are you really going to leave for this? C'mon Sarah nothing has really happened, I was just sitting there smoking a cigarette, what else should I say?" I tried again praying so hard she wouldn't leave.
"Try with the truth maybe" she said starting to rearrange the things in her suitcase.
I sat on the edge of the bed next to her suitcase, I needed a break, a moment to think and try not to cry but this just had the opposite effect of making burst into tears even harder. "Do you really wanted me to say I feel like something is really going wrong even though my doctor said i'm totally fine? Do you really wanted me to ruin that moment? God Sarah, we had just had the most amazing sex, I've spent the most beautiful hours of the day between your arms in bed. How could I do that? You looked so happy and beautiful..." I buried my head into my thighs trying so hard to stop me from crying.
"What do you feel... exactly" she asked kneeling in front of me moving strands of hair from my face.
"I don't know... it has always sucked but in recent times it sucks even more, I can no longer trust my body. I don't know if you even have the lightest idea of how I feel."
"What about telling your father tomorrow?" She asked stroking my cheeks to comfort me.
"I don't want to worry them too much I'll wait until we're back in New York in two days and I'll go through more checks there... I already spoke to my teacher, you know the one who got me as her assistant and she said she will help me" I said clearly.
"Are you sure that's what you want to do?"
"I am" I said cutting the conversation "now can we please go out, have a drink or two... or maybe twenty and just have fun? Please" I said giving her a puppy look.
She chuckled "Of course..".
I got ready as fast as I could and she never said a word about it again later that night...
"Giiiiirls!" A drunk Luca cheered us on the door of his apartment.
"I can't believe you didn't wait for me!" I told him just to make him feel guilty not that I really cared about it.
"Uuh... sorry but you were always late in the past and i see you stil are" he honestly told me.
"Uh this really hurts, asshole... we're gonna have a chat about that later when you'll be a little more aware of what you're saying" I said punching him on his arm but then I went on to the others sitting on the sofas.
"Oh my god you guys! we haven't seen in a long long time" I said approaching but i froze when I saw someone I didn't expect to see that night. I tried to act as if I didn't care but like 5 seconds of mutual staring made the thing impossible to hide.
"So guys this is my girlfriend, Sarah" I said even though they perfectly knew who she was and it sounded really weird to introduce her as my girlfriend.
Fortunately they decided not to embarrass me  and acted really mature greeting her and not like the bunch of crazy fans they actually were.
I mentally thanked them.
"So here's one of my specials for my best best friend" Luca said handing me a cup "and here's one for my best friend's beautiful girl" he continued and handed Sarah another cup.
"Hey don't try flirting with my girlfriend" I said grabbing her from her waist protectively.
"Honey did you forget I'm gay?" He said laughing.
"This beauty could turn straight the gayest of men" I said looking at Sarah.
"Oh don't be silly love. I wouldn't have said you were gay Luca" Sarah told him sipping from her cup "oh there's tequila in this, isn't it?" She asked.
"Yes, with a few other things... this girl is so multitalented!" He said and it was some kind of funny to see him saying to a famous actress she was talented. "Yes I'm a skilled tequila detector" they both laughed and seemed to be having fun so I thought they wouldn't have minded me leaving to get a stronger drink.
I couldn't shake the feeling I had felt when i had seen my ex girlfriend there. Of course I should have considered she might have been there but the thought of her hadn't even crossed my mind.
"Hey babe be careful with that, it's not water" a smiling Sarah said as she came over.
"Yeah but I hate Luca's special, please don't tell him" I giggled.
"Your secret's safe with me" she said and as soon as Luca's started playing some music she was looking at me and I was carefully avoiding that look, I needed more alcohol in my body before I could at least try to dance.
"You're sure you're okay, aren't you?" She asked facing me.
"Uhm?" I wasn't listening.
"You okay?" She said louder.
"Oh, yes!" I said but her look made me change my mind instantly about lying "I'm not... the girl I had an embarrassing moment before, you remember?" I asked and she nodded instantly "Sofia right?" She checked
"Yes, she's my ex" I said and took a long sip.
"Oh... well don't think about her, just have fun, you're with me now" she seductively winked at me.
"It's just it was a pretty rough break up and many things have been left unsolved" I clarified "so seeing her tonight wasn't something I was prepared for" I emptied my cup.
"Let's see if I can distract you" she said and leaned in to kiss me, I smiled and kissed her back, she abandoned her cup on the table and her hands cupped my face deepening the kiss until I pulled away because Luca was calling for us.
"So since we're all gathered here in like months what about a ritual strip poker?" He asked and then asked Sarah if she was okay with it.
"Sure I am" She said blushing and getting her cup back emptying it. She looked at me and I scrolled my shoulders in fact I wasn't exactly fine there with my ex girlfriend and my girlfriend getting naked or half naked in front of each other but... I couldn't say no.
Fortunately the game didn't last long because there were really terrible players and I managed to stay in my jeans though I had to take off my shirt and shoes while Sarah was in her shirt without her skirt and shoes.
While Luca was just in his underwear, clearly he was the terrible player.
"At least guys we can all say we played strip poker with Sarah Paulson" Marco, one of the boys who was more a fan of American horror story, said making us all laugh. When a door shut close abruptly he realized not everyone was laughing.
"Ok I'm going after her" Marta said getting out of the arms of her boyfriend but I really felt sorry separating them so I recollected my forces and said "No Marta it's fine I'm going... We all know it probably is about me so we better get rid of this" I said and walked towards the terrace door. "I know it's not a good idea but I'll come with you if you want honey" Sarah said.
"No Sarah, I don't really need more drama, I'll be right back. I'm just asking if she's fine." I said placing a kiss on her cheek and going upstairs.
"What's up Sof?" I asked when I saw her sitting on the ground "oh god it's freezing out here, you sure you don't want to come down?"
"No I was a little bit too drunk, needed fresh air" she cut short.
"Do you need help? Are you feeling sick or something?" I asked standing in front of her.
"I don't need any help okay?" She blurted out.
"Okay, listen... I don't know what the fuck is going on nor do I care, I just came after you because you seemed to be having a problem, I don't know if it involves me or Sarah but if it does I don't think you have any right to be acting like this, honestly, but if you need a refresh on our break up just tell me"
"Always so brutally honest huh?" She asked and i saw she had tears in her eyes but I really didn't give a fuck "That's just it wasn't supposed to go like this, we had it good together..."
"Good?! You made me go through the worst time of my life just because you're a crazy bitch and you don't care about other people's lives and feelings"
"I just did what you couldn't"
"Yeah like telling my parents I was gay when we had just discovered I had diabetes... maybe telling them was the right thing but you had the worst timing and mostly important it wasn't something you had to do, I should've done it, when I felt ready"
"And I regret it, please forgive me" She was getting closer and closer to my lips but I pulled away when I realized. She was mean, selfish and a liar, I couldn't let her play with me.
"No! I may forgive you one day, but it's not going to be today and also I'm not going to let you hurt Sarah and ruin my life for the second time"
"Do you really think she loves you?" She laughed and it was terrifying how much hate was in that laugh.
"She does, I know because I know what is like not being loved, I felt it with you and it was completely different" I said and I was done taking all that shit so I left her since I clearly couldn't help her. I opened the door and Sarah was standing right behind it.
"How long have you been there?" I asked her because I couldn't read what was that expression she had.
"Enough" she pulled away from the handrail she was leaning against and moved towards me "You've been amazing, so strong and honest, she did terrible to you but you still were polite to her and friendly with her" she said stroking my face tying strands of hair behind my ears "You absolutely have no fault, you understand?" She said looking into my eyes, she had said the only sentence i wanted to hear and i melted down, I hugged her tight crying on her shoulder, I just needed someone to tell me all this wasn't my fault.
Sofia ran inside pushing us off her way when Sarah pulled away from me and grabbed her wrist incredibly fast. "Hey!" She said "Let me go"
"Oh sorry dear, are you leaving? have a good night, don't you dare bothering my lady anymore and... what was the last one... oh yeah, go fuck yourself" Sarah said with a grin on her face and let go of her wrist. "Simple but effective" she said chuckling.
I was standing there in awe, the only thing I could do was kissing her and so I did, I kissed her, truly and deeply. She surely was the best thing that ever happened to me.
"I'm so sorry she fucked up our night out, I really wanted you to know my friends because they're really crazy about you and... " too many words came to my mouth together so I had to pause.
"Actually we've been behind the door the whole time so we got to know each other better, they said they would come out if things got too heated you know.." she confessed.
"I should've imagined it" i said.
"I had to pull them back a couple of times, I wanted you to let it all out, and you did"
"Thank you" I thanked her from the bottom of my heart "I don't know what I would do without you"
"You won't get to know it" she leaned in and kissed me.
"What about going home? I don't know, I feel like it would be awkward to stay" I asked her.
"Whatever you want is fine" she said holding my hand downstairs.
I said goodbye to everyone because in two days we were going back to New York because we both had to work. They were all very comprehensive and supportive to me and I thanked everyone for the support and was about to get into the elevator.
"Sylvia!" Luca called.
"What?" I said peeping out of the elevator.
"I'm incredibly sorry, I hadn't thought about it when I texted her for tonight I'm very upset you had to do this, are you mad at me?" He asked and looked sincerely hurt.
"Oh my God I'm not mad, I couldn't be mad at you, you couldn't know she would've acted like this" I said "I love you okay? I'm not mad. Come visit us in New York whenever you can, we're leaving in two days. I won't be back til summer and I don't know if Sarah will come, so come visit us, bye dork, goodnight" I said and pushed the button to the ground floor.
"I will. Goodnight!" He yelled to the closing doors at three in the morning.
"Let's go home" I said to Sarah.
"Yeah, I'm sooo tired" she yawned.
"I didn't mean that, that's my parent's home" I pointed out "Home is wherever you are in this whole wide world" she looked at me like I had said something unbelievable but it was just the truth, that place had nothing to offer to me, i just wanted to be with her and wether it was in New York, Pechino, Buenos Aires or wherever, I didn't care.
"Yeah, let's go home, I love you" she responded.

I think you've been waiting long enough for this chapter. I hope it was good and that the smut part wasn't too bad.
Thanks to the ones still reading this... This story just hit 2000+ reads and I am really happy and thankful for this because when I published the first chapter I didn't think there were going to be more actually but you got it far to part 16! Thank you 😘🥺