Red (Davekat)

Unknown Waters

<Be the adorable hipster with the wwavvy accent who is currently in some deep shit>

Okay, so this was not how I imagined this would turn out. I didn't want to say "yes" in front of everyone, but all-in-all, I did want it to happen. Cod, I fucked up so bad. I sighed as I sat up on my bed. It was probably a good idea to go and clear things up with Sol...

... but I don't wanaaaaaa.

All of the "what if"s kept running circles through my mind until I found myself in front of his door. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck how did I get here? Do I want to do this? There has to be a way for this to backfire.

Knocking on the door quietly, I gulped, waiting for an answer. I fidgeted with my shirt as the silence stretched on for what seemed like hours. Maybe he didn't hear me? I knocked again, louder this time, despite my better judgment.

"II 2wear two- who ii2 iit and why can't any of you iidiiot2 take a damn hiint?"

I winced and almost backed away from the door. Before I could, my mouth was moving, "uh, it's me Sol..."

The door opened seconds later, revealing the shorter troll. He was glaring at me with puffy eyes like I would burst into flames if he did it for long enough. My heart dropped to the pit of my stomach and I began to question all of my life decisions. Was he crying? Over me? Does this troll have no standards?

"What the fuck do you want, fii2h diick?" the words were half-hearted and he sniffed, wiping his nose with the sleeve of his jacket. I noticed that both sleeves already had fresh wet spots along the rim.

I must have made some kind of distasteful face or something because his scowl deepened and he growled quietly, "iif you ju2t came here two judge me-"

"Nonono. Cod no. Sol that's not wwhy I... um, came... here," I wrung my hands.

"Then why diid you come here?" his voice remained flat and I could see his throat move as he swallowed hard.

"To apologize?" I shuffled my feet and bit my bottom lip.

"Well golly! What would the hiigh and miighty viioletblood po22iibly have two apologiize for?" he half-yelled sarcastically.

"Sol-"

"No! 2hut up. II get iit. II'm clearly not good enough. Ju2t, whatever. II don't need you two fuckiing tell me. II ju2t fiigured that II'd try, okay? IIt wa2 humiiliiatiing enough down there, II don't need you rubbiing iit iin anymore. Giive me 2ome 2pace, alriight? II'll get over iit eventually. After all, how ii2 a lowly yellowblood 2uppo2ed liike me 2uppo2ed two compare two F-" he hiccuped, cutting his sentence short as hot tears started to streak down his face like I'm sure they must have been a few minutes ago.

I tried to speak again, raising my own voice an octave to match his, "Sol, coddammit, calm dowwn!" I gulped, feeling even more terrible, but he needed to hear me.

He sniffled again and wiped his face, looking at me with wide eyes. Well, I had his attention now, but I had no idea what to do with it. He wasn't crying as badly anymore. In fact, he was holding his breath in an attempt to stop. His bottom lip quivered before he bit it. A few more hiccups wracked his body before he allowed himself to breathe again. His lips parted as his breaths came in harsh, wavering swaths.

I heard a noise to my left and looked up to see Karkat's door being pushed open. Dave- wait Dave?- poked his head out. He looked towards us, but it was impossible to tell what his expression was due to the fact that he was wearing his shades, as usual. I could see, however, that his eyebrows were raised in interest.

Well... this was awkward. I heard a growl next to me and Sol tugged me into his room, slamming the door behind us.

"2o," his breath hitched, "w-what diid y-you want to-" he was cut off by another sharp intake of air.

I hesitated, not knowing what to say, "Sol... I wwas... scared," he opened his mouth, presumably to shoot out some kind of sarcastic comment, but I held up a hand to stop him. His jaw clamped shut again and he continued the battle with his own lungs.

"Hear me out. You asked me that in front of evveryone, and I panicked. I wwanted so badly to say yes, but I wwas too scared to. I don't knoww wwhy. Noww, I don't wwant you to feel bad because it wwasn't your fault, okay?" he nodded timidly, "I'm reely sorry Sol. I knoww that I messed up badly. You havve no idea howw much I regret it, but-"

He lifted a hand up and pressed a finger to my mouth. I flinched but shut up. Before I could register it, Sollux was hugging me. My entire body froze for a moment, but I lifted my arms up and wrapped them around his waist.

"ED...?"

I gulped and looked down at him, "y-yea? Wwhat?"

He sighed and closed his eyes, nuzzling into my chest, sniffling again, "do II have two a2k you agaiin?"

I smirked, "it'd be nice. Wwe could start this wwhole thing ovver" then I could say what I fucking wanted to say in the first place...

"Promii2e not two make me cry agaiin?"

"I promise."

His breathing had mellowed out a bit and I lifted a hand up to the back of his head, tangling my fingertips in the ends of his hair. He took a breath and muttered the words so softly that I could barely hear it, "Eriidan Ampora? Wiill you be my mate2priit?"

I have no idea why my heart leaped and I had a mini heart-attack at the mention of my name. Burying my face in his hair, I kissed the top of his head before I had any time to really think about it, "Of course I wwill. I'd havve to be stupid to say otherwwise..."

His grip on my waist tightened and he made a soft gasping noise as he sniffled again. I looked at his face, concerned as streams of yellow ran down his face. Holding him tighter, I sat down and kept him in my lap, gently running my fingers through his hair as he trembled lightly.

"D-dammiit," he choked slightly with the effort of holding his tears in, "y-you fuckiing to-told me that you w-wouldn't make me- c-cry."

He let out a wet sound that could've been a laugh, but it came out more like a violent sob. I shushed him and kissed his head again, "It's okay Sol... I'm right here and I'm not goin' anywwhere. I swwear," he whimpered quietly, so I tugged him closer, not caring that he was soaking the front of my shirt.

"It's alright, let it out," I just continued to mutter reassurance and soft nothings in his ear until the tears had stopped and he wiped the dampness from his face.

He sniffed and yawned, chest quivering as he did so from the aftereffects of crying, "T-thanks ED..." he mumbled, swallowing and taking a shaky breath.

"Anytime."

"2orry for... that."

"Don't apologize. You didn't do anyfin wwrong."

He scoffed, "IIf you 2ay 2o," he chewed on his lip like he was contemplating something, "ii2... ii2 iit okay two tell you that II love you?"

"I think I got that," I answered somewhat sarcastically, but I was grinning like a moron, "and of course it is. I lovve you too Sol."

He brightened up and squeezed me tight, nuzzling into my neck. I stroked his back gently burrowing my face in his hair, "I lovve you too..."

This chapter's kinda short and weird (that's what she said) but yea. Here ya go.