Stop. Just... Stop. (RANT BOOK)

PTFFD

(This isn't making fun of PTSD, I promise.)

I feel like Post Traumatic Fan Fiction Disorder (or something like that) should be a thing.

-SPOILERS-

Kind of spoilers for: Smile Again by Larry_Lashton and Rags Meet Riches by the same girl. (Larry_Lashton)

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So, I can't listen to the song It's Getting Hot In Here anymore without getting very upset and my chest feels tight and I feel like crying. -Kinda crying right now, not gonna lie.-
Skittles make me upset because then I think of Luke and Ashton sitting up on the roof eating them, but then Ashton was gong to eat the skittles right before Luke's motercycle was hit by a truck. Skittles was their thing and it just hurts.

So does A Thousand Years by Christina Perri, which kills me now.

Earlier yesterday, I was in the car and my mom was driving me for food, and there was a guy on a motorcycle without a helmet on. I saw him and I was like :(. And then my mother goes 'I hope you never have to see a motorcycle crash. It's bloody and horrible' reffering to the fact that he didn't have a helmet on and I had to hold back tears and I couldn't breathe right because if I tried to, I would've made weird sad noises. It was horrible because then I thought about Luke dying and they were so close to fu.cking Paris and- I'm just sad, sorry for that.

*Sobs* Rain is literally crying now. *Walks out blindly, hits a wall, slides down it and cries louder*