Stop. Just... Stop. (RANT BOOK)

New Years

Kind of not really a rant.

So, I'm sorry for being kinda absent for the past week, and I wrote this in early December, before a lot of shit happened.

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New Years is the time to go 'lol I'm giving up chocolate' and then five minutes later stuff your face full of chocolate.

Thanksgiving is the time to go 'I'm thankful for the internet1!!1'

Well, I don't give a shit, I'm gonna just say thanks to some people because I can. -These are in no particular order, I love you all equally-

First person: @magicxl, or as I like to call her, Avanue. This little shit is a good friend of mine, and she has been there for me when I needed her and I love you Ava, and I'm really thankful for having you as a friend. #FlashlightScience Larry is watching you.

Second person: @HiOrHeyLashton, Alex. She is also a good friend of mine, and is really funny and I'm so, so glad she's my friend. I'll love you forever, Alax.

Third person: COURTNEY. MEH MAIN PUDDLE. Or, @GNRandHoran, as you may know her as. she's really funny and if you need someone to talk to at 3 am, she's your best bet. Also, she'll scare you with Old Gregg, so be careful at 3 am not to watch it XD. I love you, Kortknee.

Fourth person: @PeppaFlippingPig, Ryan, da main toastie. Ryan's a good person to rant to, he gets it. He gets the pure hatred for everything and everyone. And that's why I love him.

Five: @mukeclcmmings, Neam. Or should I say ass licker -luv u bby- This girl is vv friendly, no matter what time it is when she's on. She's funny and nice and just sajanjbkbqjkhjnsilhdf

Six: @tbhlashtonaf she shares my hatred for everything, and she agrees with me that everyone sucks.

Seven: @iCheeseYou is amazing. She's adorable, and writes cute stories and is over all fun to talk to. Love you, keep being you.

Eight: @youshouldbeproud Bree. This girl, this girl is fucking amazing and I love her so much. She is very inspirational, and she is very smart and very sweet. Bree is very entertaining, and our first conversation over a year ago on my other account was about hamsters, and it was beautiful, just like her. I hope we stay friends for a long time, Bree.

Nine: @LukesSpareCondom Sophie is cute and she's sweet and honestly, she reminds me of a nicer me, even though she claims she's mean. Ily bby <3

To all of the above people, I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH AND YOU'RE MY FAVORITE PEOPLE OUT OF THE FEW PEOPLE I DON'T HATE OKAY.

*ahem*

Also, quick shout out to Ashton Irwin who is also a very inspirational guy and is the sweetest man alive. And, quick shout out to Michael Clifford who I will always cherish.

I'm also really thankful to the people who read my rants because that makes me so happy. When I started writing these, I never figured that people would agree with me. In my life, when I stated my opinion, my friends would say that I was being mean, or that I was bitchy. And honestly, that's kinda true, but it's nice to fine people to bitch with, and I want to thank you guys so much for this and you all with always have a special place in my heart.

And I'm also going to use this as an opportunity -I can't spell- to let go. I guess writing these down will give me closure or whatever.

There was a girl who I considered a good friend named Sam. And I talked to her a lot and she was funny and just really cool. And then she came out and said that she was fake. Her profile picture wasn't her, the pictures she posted weren't her, her name wasn't Sam, she was fake. And that crushed me and made me so sad. And I miss her. I was mad, but now I just want her back, and I need to let her go because it's not going to happen.

There was a boy who I was great friends with. Or so I thought. I'm not gonna say his name because I don't want anyone to recognize him and then be like 'OMG I KNOW U' because that'd scare the shit out of me. Anyway, our relationship was okay, better than some friendships but worse than others, y'know? I haven't talked to him in a few months- actually I KIK'd him over my friend's account, but I freaked out and said '-one of my friend's names here- WANTS TO KNOW THE SIZE OF YOUR DICK'. I panicked, and I'm stupid. Anyway. So yeah, I haven't talked face-to-face with him in maybe 8-9...10 months? 12? Idk, it's been a while. But whenever I happen onto his Instagram, I cry, and it's horrible and I want to let go. I need to let go.

And here's one I'm sure you're sick of hearing about and it's stupid but, Jason -VeeOneEye-. fucking hell. Honestly, it still bothers me, and I'm pretty sure I always will, but I always feel the need to check up on him and make sure he's okay. And I don't want to need to do that anymore. I don't want it in my thoughts anymore.

The only two things you need to take away from this long shit: 1. I love you guys so much. 2. Never put me on the spot, because apparently when that happens I ask about your dick size.

*blows confetti* Rain hopes you have a good 2015. *dances*