Lost Souls (Book 2)

Part 22

Alec ran out from their home not able to swallow the thought of what his so-called father mentioned earlier. "You're not my son, you're just my wife's affair results." The words kept repeating over and over again in Alec's mind and he felt like exploding. He felt like a ticking bomb that waited for the right moment to explode. He didn't know where his feet went but the next thing he knew is that he was in the forest in the backyard and there was a small shed that look abandoned. He remember they used to have one like this back in New York, where he and his sibling used to hang out and do fun stuffs. The memories hurts him like a knife stabbing him repeatedly.

He clenched his chest as his body fell on the floor kneeling on the cold tiles that filled with dead leaves. His tears won't stop leaving him as he remembers how cold his father was at him ever since he was a kid. Now everything is all explained why. He was fool to believe that his father loves him that way but the fact was he was never his in the first place. All the cold stares, the harsh talks, and the forceful decision is mainly because he wasn't responsible for him in the first place and Alec wonders all these years why Izzy always the favorite one, she was the only heir of Lightwood property and company. Alec was at the verge of breaking when he remembers all of these in his head and he couldn't help but feeling betrayed, betrayed by his mother and the thought of his own father was actually there right under his nose but he didn't know anything.

The thoughts of Amari and his death made Alec remembers few glimpse of his past. How he stroke Alec's face when he was merely unconscious. He remembers his face so closed to his in his dream as he whispered something in his ear but the voice weren't audible for him. How his eyes were cold but warm at the presence of Alec and he thought it was lust for him but it was the other way around. How he used to repeatedly mentioned to Alec how he belongs to him and Alec was taken away from him. Those were the only thing he remembers and everything after that blurs and if he forced it he will get another headache.

He was staring into the blankness not aware someone is approaching him in the shed. He could hear footsteps and later a door open and shut. He was sitting on the dirty floor with his knees to his chest as he rested his forehead on the knees. He didn't want to see anyone, he didn't want to raise his head to see who was the person stood next to him. Later, he feel the person sitting next to him and sighed. "Alec." The voice were so soft and comforting but it only hurts him more. He turned his head to his side and gaze upon his sisters face. She has been crying and Alec knew how bad she cried if she was looking like this. Puffy eyes, redden nose and pale lips. Izzy always had make up on and when she looks like this means she is rather sad or depressed.

"Alec, I'm really sorry." Izzy placed her hand on Alec's shoulder and next thing he knew Alec pulled her for a hug, his body shudders in tears and Izzy rubs small circles on his back. She wished she could say anything to soothe Alec but she knew better that nothing in this world could make him feel any better. So she let him cried his heart out for a moment and they both didn't say any words in respect for each other's feeling.

"I'm so sorry Alec, I wish I could make you feel any better but I know it won't." Izzy pushed him back so their eyes could meet, he kept his face down on his hand and Izzy saw the guilt on Alec's face. She cupped his cheek and ran her thumb over Alec's, wiping his tears away. Alec couldn't faced his sister, even now he knew she is his half sister only.

"Izzy, I'm-" Alec was cut off by his sisters finger on his lips. "Alec I want to tell you and I want you to listen to me. No matter what dad told you, you are my brother, flesh and blood, you and Jace, no matter what. I don't want you to feel you are alone. I am here for you no matter what. Me and Jace and we are gonna stick together like we used too. Remember? Three goes in, three comes out." She held her hand and Alec eyed it before he placed his palm on her, "No matter what, you are my brother, never for once think you don't belong with us. No matter you will go, I will always be there as your sister, you hear me?"