Lose With You

CHAPTER THREE

CHAPTER THREE

Remembering a broken heart

ELISE.

Matapos akong isayaw ni Terrence ay nagpaalam na uuwi na. Gusto niya pa sana akong ihatid pero tumanggi agad ako sa kanyang alok. He'll be another guy to enter my life, and leave me hanging.

Hindi naman ako sobrang tanga na hindi makita iyon. I don't want people entering my life and leaving after.

I'm done letting anyone hurt me. Besides, I should not let myself again talk again to that guy, because I remember how he talks like Ashton.

Oh, I remember, he's a happy married man. Great, Elise, just great.

Ako ang pumutol sa sayaw namin ni Terrence kasi habang tumatagal, nakikita ko na ay ibang tao. Taong, kilalang-kilala ko. Hinabol ako ni Terrence para ihatid ako pero agad akong tumanggi.

Kasi kumikirot na naman ulo ko, wala namang sinabi ang doktor na kumikirot din sa sakit yung dibdib ko.

The pain clashes again.

Nang makarating ako sa kubo, agad akong pumunta sa kusina at kinuha ang medicine kit ko at uminom ulit ng mga tableta. Lumabas ako ng kubo at pumunta sa tabi ng dagat. Umupo ako sa buhanginan at pinagmasdan ang kalangitan.

The place was so serene and quiet, compared to my mind, with full of painful memories and noisy thoughts.

Will I be okay? I hope.

"Maybe you should take the operation, Elise. It will be best for you to be completely okay." Suhestiyon ni Cindy at hinawakan ako sa magkabilang balikat.

"I don't want to forget him completely, Cinds." Oo, galit ako pero mahal ko e at saka pagod na 'kong makalimot ulit.

"Elise, you better think about this. It's for your own sake, quit thinking other people. Isipin mo naman yung para sa kabutihan mo." Giit niya at niyakap ako.

If I knew it earlier, I would.

"Elise." Vince patted my head.

"I know it's hard for you to accept that Ash is with somebody else. But, let me tell you this, everything has it's time. Take this as a lesson, for you." After everything, Vince stayed as a good friend to me and I am thankful.

"Am I unworthy?" Naluluha kong tanong sa kanya at inakbayan niya ako at ipinilig ko naman ang ulo ko sa balikat niya.

"No, who told you that? You don't know how worthy you are. It's just that the right man is not yet here to pick you up." He sincerely said.

I just remembered how I made my speech for his wedding. After Andrew, my friends weren't suppose to give the microphone to me, but I stood up and took the mic after he ended his speech for the new wedded couple.

Patricia didn't know about us.

"First of all, I congratulate the two of you. I am so happy that you ended up each other." I said it sweetly and smiled at the two of them but I saw how Ash looked at me, pity.

"I wish that you would always fill each other with love through the happiest and worst days of your lives and even for your future kids!" Love. Kids. Future.

Naalala ko na naman. Pinunasan ang tumulong luha mula sa mga mata ko at napasinghap. Walang araw, na hindi ko pa rin siya maalis sa isipan ko, na sa kahit anong bagay, naalala ko siya.