Different

Chapter 19

I turned off my computer and went downstairs to watch tv for a while, since I knew our school would probably blow up and I wanted to wait a while before I read through people’s reactions. The battery on my phone has already been dead for hours so I didn’t need to worry about getting texts or calls either. After a couple of hours of watching tv I decided that I’d better go and face the music since I’d be back at school on Monday anyway. Ugh.

I had 15 new friend requests. Nosey. I accepted them all anyway since the more friends I had on Facebook the better. I had inboxes from the girls which I expected and loads of messages from Spencer that I didn’t open. I had a few messages from girls I barely even speak to who were clearly trying to dig up dirt on what had happened between us.

I had sooo many notifications. A lot of them were likes from thirsty boys who I’d nevergo anywhere near. I don’t even understand why people like statuses saying people are single, why are you happy that I’m feeling like shit? I’m obviously not going to randomly have sex with someone straight after I’ve broken up.

I opened Tamzin’s inbox first.

Aww Jenna baby, are you ok? :( xxx call me if you need to talk

Then Savannah’s

Aww Jen Jen hope you’re ok xx you can do wayyyyyyyy better than Spencer anyway hun

Then finally I opened Courtney’s. Wish me luck.

What. Seriously, call me.

Well it wasn’t as bad as I was expecting, but I wasn’t exactly rushing to the phone to call her either. I’d have to do it tomorrow though since I don’t want her making a big scene in school.

I opened Spencer’s messages. They were all about being ‘sorry’ and ‘it isn’t what you think’ and ‘give me another chance’ blah. A new message popped up in my inbox. It was from Luke.

hope you’re ok

im not great tbh, thanks though

I signed off straight after. I wasn’t in the mood for a conversation with anyone. I went downstairs as I’d decided to tell my mom that me and Spencer broke up. Maybe she’ll be less of a bitch after I tell her since she’s been waiting for this for months. She was sat in front of the tv absent mindedly staring into space, she wasn’t even looking at the screen. Must be nothing on.

I sat down on the sofa. ‘Mom.. me and Spencer broke up.’ Her face softened. She pulled me into a hug. I couldn’t even remember the last time we’d hugged. It was..nice. ‘You know it’s for the best, right?’

‘Yeah.’ I replied. It was easier to agree even though my heart was literally breaking. I felt sick to my stomach and my throat was tight.