Different

Chapter 28

I had 5 minutes left of math. I’d made sure to get to class at the last possible second so Spencer didn’t have a chance to talk to me. He’d been sending me literally 30+ texts a day, all of which I ignored. Is it really that difficult to understand that I will never get back with him? I’d already started packing away my things so I could make a quick getaway. Even though I was dreading being tutored by Luke after yesterday, but it gave me an excuse to use the other corridor when I was leaving to get to the library so there would be even less chance that Spencer would get to talk to me.

The second the bell went I dashed for the door and turned left through the double doors instead of carrying straight on down the corridor. I made sure to walk fast, just incase he saw that I walked in this direction. When I’d reached the other door I let myself relax as I walked to the library since I knew Spencer couldn’t see me now.

I walked into the library and sat down at the table we worked at last week. I earned a few stares from an assorted variety of geeks and losers since I was clearly not in my natural habitat, which is basically anywhere but the library.

After a few minutes Luke showed up and sat down next to me. ‘Hi.’ I said smiling, hoping he had forgotten about yesterday. He clearly hadn’t since the only thing I got in reply was a blank facial expression. After he’d gotten out his textbook he launched straight into going over chemistry junk. I made as many notes as I could, not really understanding much of it.

About half way through the hour we decided to take a 5 minute break. I folded my arms on the desk and rested my head on them. It was nice to relax for a few seconds, since my brain was basically fried from all the stuff we were going over.

We carried on going through chemistry stuff for about 5 more minutes until 2 of Luke’s friends came over (the same ones as Tuesday, to say these people are smart they don’t seem to realise that you shouldn’t disturb someone being tutored!). After a while they decided to leave. We had 5 minutes left before we were going to leave. If it had been up to me I would have just gone early, but Luke carried on so I just went along with it.

We were walking out of the gates together and I was trying to talk to him, but he was just flat-out ignoring me. After a few ignored sentences I just asked him what I was thinking ‘Why aren’t you talking to me?’ He looked at me as if I was stupid, which I suppose I was since I was failing chemistry.

‘Did you get the texts I sent you yesterday?’

‘Yeah. So what? Do you even know Kelsey?’

‘Kacey.’ he corrected me ‘and not really, but it’s still a shitty thing to do.’ he said with an exasperated tone.

‘I didn’t film it and send it round the whole school!’ how dare he act like I’m the bad guy when I’ve literally done nothing wrong!

‘You still laughed at it though.’

‘Because it was funny!’

‘Do you think Kacey thinks it’s funny?’ I didn’t know what to say after that. Of course Kacey wouldn’t find it funny, but people get laughed at everyday. As long as they aren’t popular it’s just not a big deal to me. It’s just life. To be completely honest I didn’t really care that much about Kacey, but I did care about Luke.

‘I’m sorry.’ I said genuinely feeling a tiny bit guilty for laughing at Kacey.

‘Don’t say sorry to me, say sorry to her.’

‘What can I say to you that will stop you ignoring me and we can go back to the way we were speaking a few days ago?’

‘Honestly, Jenna. If Courtney knew about us talking would you really still be standing here.’ No. No. No. No.

‘Of course I would!.’

‘No you wouldn’t! You’re too scared to be yourself when you’re around her. It’s like she controls you or something. Its..weird.’

‘Courtney’s just...’

Luke cut in ‘Courtney’s just a bitch. Yeah, I know!’ He walked off after that, leaving me standing there stunned for a few minutes before I started walking home. I’d never heard anyone talk about Courtney like that! Even though it was true it was still weird to hear someone actually say it. When I got home I checked my phone for messages.

from Luke

sorry for being an asshole earlier

to Luke

its fine xx

I’d spent at least 5 minutes debating whether to send one kiss or two. I decided on two since I can’t stop thinking about him lately. I even dream about him most nights, I just can’t get away from how I’m feeling.