Different

Chapter 20

I woke up on Sunday morning. I felt like crap. My heart seriously needed to shut the hell up. It was 10:17, I decided to call Courtney since she always got up early to go to the gym on Sunday’s anyway, she should be done by now. I took a deep breath as I hesitantly hit the call button. It rang a few times before she picked up.

‘Hi.’ I said nervously.

‘Hey.’ she replied in a bored tone.

‘You wanted me to call you?’

‘Yeah, what took you so long?’ she sounded irritated.

‘I was really tired and my mom wanted to talk to me.’ Mom’s are always useful for excuses. It’s about the only thing they’re useful for really.

She sighed dramatically ‘what happened between you two anyway?’ she made a point of sounding bored. I told her about what happened at the mall, making sure not to mention that I’d been there with Luke.

‘Are you really shocked though? I mean I told you to have sex with him. Boys get bored easily.’ I knew she’d try and turn this around on me. She carried on ‘you literally lost the best boyfriend ever, I mean he was on the football team for fucks sake and you just threw it all away as if popularity means nothing to you. I think you should give him another chance.’

‘No.’

‘Why not? Isn’t it better than being alone.’

‘No.’

‘I really don’t understand you sometimes. Let him grovel for a while and when he’s apologised enough get back together with him. It’s simple!’ she hung up straight after. Ugh. Courtney is such a shit friend sometimes. Why does she even want me to be with someone who cheats on me? Does she not care if I’m happy or not?! She’s meant to be my best friend!

I had so many messages and missed calls from Spencer. I wasn’t planning on answering any of them, but when my phone started ringing I felt like I had to answer it. Even though I knew it would only upset me more. I pressed the accept call button anyway. I just needed to hear his voice.

‘Jen. Jenna? Are you there?’ he sounded really weird, kind of breathless, like he’d been running or something.

‘I’m here.’ I said quietly.

‘Jenna, hear me out please. Lucy means nothing to me.’ Lucy? I didn’t know a Lucy, she mustn't go to our school. ‘I swear Jen, I promise I’ll never be so stupid again, I’m such an idiot.’ I let him blabber on for a while, but I wasn’t really focused on what he was saying, none of it was changing how I felt. Until he said something that caught my attention. ‘I only even slept with her twice, it was nothing.’ I felt physically sick, as if someone had punched me in the stomach. I threw my phone across the room, not caring whether it broke or not and burst into tears. Only twice?! Only twice?! He’s acting as if it’s nothing! When we never even slept together once! I climbed back into bed and hid under the sheets crying.