Loving the Ruthless Wave

Kabanata 18

Kabanata 18

Marriage

Life is really complicated. I tried finding the answers, but life changed the questions. It is so twisted. You wouldn't know what will happen next. All of your expectations might happen or might not. There are a lot of probabilities and change of events.

I don't know how my dad did it. I don't know how he made it happen but his promises came true.

Sabi niya, I would marry Apollo. And can you even imagine that? It came true!

I reallt did marry him!

But it was not like any ordinary or any normal marriages you can think of. It is still a one sided love. He doesn't love me so our relationship is quite not that good. He's almost always mad at me. Madalas rin ay hindi na kami nagaabot sa bahay. Darating siya ng gabing gabi na at aalis rin ng sobrang aga para sa trabaho.

He's always drunk too. Nagdadala ng mga babae sa bahay at nakikipag inuman doon. Hindi ko naman siya pinapakialaman dahil magagalit lamang siya sa akin. He's a monster when he is mad. Madalas niya rin akong pagsalitaan ng masasamang bagay at sinasaktang pisikal. He blames me for his broken relashionship with Nichole.

And about Nichole.. I don't even know what happened to her. Wala na akong narinig sakanya mula noon. Bigla nalang siyang nawala at naglaho na parang bula. Hindi na siya muling nagpakita at wala na rin akong balita sa kanya. Kung may kinalaman ba si Dad sa pagkawala niya ay hindi ko alam. Hindi ko na inalam. Ayoko ba rin namang alamin pa.

Apollo and I, we've been together for three years. Three freaking years but nothing has changed. He still loathes me that much. He can't still get his self to love me back..

Mapait akong napangiti habang nakatanaw sa naglalaking mga gusali sa syudad.

I can still remember our first year of being together. He wouldn't even look at me. Hindi niya matagalan na kasama ako. Hindi rin siya nagpapanggap na ayos lang sakanya ang mga nangyayari. He hates me, I know that. I ruined everything he has. Sinira ko ang lahat sakanya. His love life and his life. He can't be civil with me.

I remembered how I cooked for him for dinner everyday. I remembered waiting for him each night until it is midnight but he didn't show up.. always. I remembered how I always cry my eyes to sleep at night. Those cold nights I spend alone, whenever I will remember it, pain will always crept inside my system. I can also remember how I always cook for him for breakfast before going to work but he will always leave without tasting even just a bite. Lagi akong kumakain mag isa. He never joined me. Not once. Not ever.

"Engineer. Pinapatawag po kayo sa office ni Engr. Miranda."

Marahan akong tumango bago nagsimulang tahakin ang daan patungo sa office ni Engr. Miranda na siyang Presidente ng isang malaking bagong proyekto ng kumpanya.

I've been working here for two years. Apollo is the CEO of the company. After our marriage, ipinasa na sakanya ng mga magulang niya ang pamamahala sa buong kumpanya. I decided to work too since I have nothing else to do in the house. Mabubulok lamang ako doon. Sayang naman ang pinag aralan ko kung hindi ko ito magagamit at hindi ako magta trabaho. Apollo is running this company quite well.. I guess. So far it is doing good. Marami ang investors at marami ang mga proyektong ginagawa.

I opened the door and walk towards his table. I greeted Engr. Miranda.

"We need to have an urgent meeting tomorrow morning to discuss all the matters of this project. I need you to tell all the heads of each branches to know about the meeting."

"How about the other team members Engr.?"

"Please inform them too and all the Engineers and Architects. I need them to be present tomorrow."