Loving the Ruthless Wave

Kabanata 30

Kabanata 30

Meeting

That day I decided to embrace everything I have. All my worries, insecurities and flaws. I decided to accept all my darkness and negativities because that is who I am. A lot of people might have so much expectations of what I should become, what I should react or what I should feel, but then this is me. This is me, the real me with overflowing flaws and fears. I accepted it all because that is the only way I can be truly happy.

I should act based on what is right, not what the society or other people's definition of right.

I started changing the way I think. I shouldn't worry about what hasn't happened yet, instead I should focus on what is in the present and what I am blessed to have at the moment. I realized that there is no permanent things in the world. Beautiful face? It will age as time pass by. Wealth? Nauubos din yan. Kahit mga tao ay umaalis. Ang mga bagay ay nasisira. Ang tanging magagawa lang natin ay gamitin ang mga ito ng tama at pahalagahan habang nasa atin pa.

"I am going to miss Siargao."

I sighed heavily thinking about leaving this very beautiful place.

This is our last day in Siargao and we decided to spend it here in Cloud 9. Ang mga nakaraang araw ay ginugol namin sa paglilibot sa ibat ibat isla rito. Medyo nagkaroon ng kulay ang aking balat dala ng matagal na pagkakababad sa araw sa mga nakaraang araw. Masyadong malayo sa dating mala papel na kulay na msitulang walang dugo at buhay. I like this better though. I don't look pale.

"This place will surely miss your presence too." He said and smiled at me.

He held my waist and placed me closer to him. I rested my head on his shoulder and look up to the same sky he is paying attention at.

I smiled.

"I hope to be back here again someday."

Humawak ako sa hamba ng malawak na boardwalk at tumingala sa kulay asul na langit.

"We surely will." He said before kissing my forehead.

We stayed there for almost an hour before deciding to leave. Nagtungo kami sa mga maliit na nakatayong store malapit sa dalampasigan. Tumingala ako sa langit. Papalubog na ang araw at kakaonti nalang ang mga tao. Kung hindi sinusulit ang pananatili rito, ang iba naman ay naghahanda na rin sa pag alis.

"Mauna ka ng magtingin ng mga souvenir." I said and pulled back my hand.

Nagsimula akong humakbang ng dalawang beses patalikod. Tinitigan niya ako ng matagal. Naninimbang ng ekspresyon. Nginitian ko siya at tinaguan.

"Why? Do you need to go somewhere else?"

Lumapit siya ng bahagya sa akin. Binabawi ang distansyang ginawa ko kanina.

"Balak ko sanang bumili muna ng inumin kaya mas maganda kung mauuna ka na."

"I can go with you. Sabay na tayong pumunta roon." He nodded, agreeing to what he said.

I shook my head to show my disapproval.

"Ako na. I can do this alone. Go ahead and look at the souvenir shops. Mabilis lang ako."

Hindi na siya nakaangal dahil bago pa siya makasagot ay tinalikuran ko na siya at nagsimula ng magtungo sa mga stall ng inumin. Tumalikod ako para lingunin siya at nakitang nakatayo pa rin siya doon at nakatanaw sa akin. I waved my hand and smile brightly at me.

I placed both my hands at my mouth.

"I love you Apollo!" I shouted at him.

I saw how the side of his lips rose before I turn around to run to the stall. Tumatawa ako dahil ginawang kabaliwan. I feel like a teenager and it feels good.