Loving the Ruthless Wave

Kabanata 4

Kabanata 4

Pain

"Raniarry!"

Hinawi ko ang kurtina sa bintana ng kwarto ni Arry. Ang ilaw mula sa labas ay tumama sa aking muka.

"When do you plan to wake up?"

I walked near her bed and picked up some pillows on the floor.

"Raniarry Marie!"

"Sunog? Nasaan ang sunog?"

I rolled my eyes as I turn my gaze on her direction.

"Bumangon ka na at mag handa, in thirty minutes aalis na tayo."

Pinulot ko ang mga nagkalat na damit sa sahig at inilagay sa kaniyang laundry basket.

"What? Mavis?"

Tinuloy ko ang pag lilinis ng kanyang kwarto at hindi siya pinansin. Para siyang hindi babae sa sobrang kalat ng kwarto. Walang sense of orderliness.

"What are you doing here? Wait, what's the date today?"

Hindi ko siya nilingon.

Bahala ka! Ewan ko sayo.

"Oh my gosh! I'm sorry!" I heard her scream.

I look at her and nodded continuously.

"Naaalala mo na?"

Mabilis siyang bumangon at kinuha ang kaniyang tuwalya bago agad agad na tumakbo patungo sa kanilang banyo.

Today is the last day of enrollment. Last year na namin sa junior high. Grade 10 to be precise.

I spend my vacation traveling all over the Europe with my family. We stayed there for two months. I learned their culture and I enjoyed the places we've been through.

Simula noong huling iyak ko dahil kay Apollo ay sinubukan kong dumistansya sakanya. Tuwing magkakasalubong kami ay mabilis akong nag iiba ng direksyon para maka iwas. Sabay pa rin kaming umuuwi pero lagi kong nilalagyan ng distansya ang pagitan naming dalawa.

I tried to avoid talking to him.

I avoided places where he would possibly be in. I tried avoiding people who's very close to him too. I tried avoiding everything related to him.

I followed Rico's advice and I think I am doing good. My life become better. I spend more time in our house studying. I tried to focus on my studies instead of thinking about Apollo.

And guess what?

I aced the ranking in our school. I graduated as the valedicterion.

I was able to spend more time with my family and myself too.

About Apollo, I think he is doing better since the day I stopped bothering him. He seems happy with me being out of his life.

This is better.

Our lives are better at this moment. I am no longer involved in everything he does but my feelings for him never faded.

I still like him. I still adore him like how I adore the moon. I still think about him like how I think about my future. I still wonder about him like how I wonder about life.

I am always watching him from afar. Kaya alam ko kung malapit siya sa akin o kung saan siya pupunta. I am avoiding him but I still know his whereabouts.

I am updated with his life.

He will never be gone in my life. He runs my system. He will never be out in my life.