Loving the Ruthless Wave

Kabanata 24

Kabanata 24

Shower

I don't know how long I stared at him after what he said. I just stared at him like he was some fool for saying those kind of things.

Is he even fucking serious?

My jaw dropped and I was not able to pick it up. All of it can't process on my mind. Does he really mean it? Does he really mean wanting to try it.. with me?

With me?

My heart pounded so fast. Pakiramdam ko ay nakuha ko na rin ang matagal ko ng pinapangarap. Ganoon pala kapag sobrang saya. Hindi mo na magawang makangiti o makalundag sa tuwa. Tanging puso ko nalang ang nagbunyi para sa akin dahil natigilan ako sa aking kinalalagyan.

The thought of it makes me lose my sanity. I slightly pinched myself to test if this is really just a dream but I proved it wrong. This is not just a dream. This is the reality I lived in. This is what I have long dreamt of. This is what I have always wished for every night before I sleep. And now it all came true.

Tears started to form in the side of my eyes. I feel like all the sleepless nights have paid off. All the tears I shed at night just to fall asleep, all the pain and heartbreaks, and now it is finally happening. My patience and perseverance are now paid off.

"Do you want to go anywhere else before going home?" He said without breaking our stare.

Marahan akong umiling bago tuluyang naglandas ang mga luha sa aking pisngi. Kita ko ang mabilisan niyang pagtayo sa kaniyang upuan at mabilis rin na paglapit at pagdalo sa akin.

"Mavis... what's wrong?"

He held my shoulders. Marahan kong pinunasan ang aking mga luha.

Umiling ako sakanya at tinitigan siya sa kaniyang mga mata. I can feel his sincerity. I don't know what changed his mind but I am thankful. Very very thankful that he did.

"Hey..."

I shook my head again. I raised my hand and reached for the side of his cheek. Marahan ko itong hinaplos pababa sa kaniyang panga bago ko itinaas muli ang aking tingin sa kaniyang mata.

He is real. He is really in front of me. Not just an illusion or a product of my imagination. He is the real one crouching in front of me looking at my soul with pure worry.

"I am just happy. Very happy... This is my long time dream you know."

That night I slept peacefully. I slept without anything bothering me. I slept with happiness in my heart.

I feel like I am already in peace because the presence of love is within my reach. I can feel my strength, courage and will power gathering up, back to me. After being so lost for so long, I can say that I am already guided back home.

Lahat ng paghihirap, lahat ng pagtitiis, lahat ng sakit, lahat ng luha ay may kapalit na magandang pangyayari sa mga taong marunong mag hintay. Sa mga taong marunong magtyaga , marunong lumaban kahit pa nasasaktan, at hindi sumusuko kahit pa nahihirapan ay nabibiyayaan ng kasiyahan sa bandang huli. I am glad and thankful that I never gave up on him. I am very glad that I was given the chance to reach this far. Sabi nga nila...

You get what you focus on so focus what you want. And I did.

I hope from this day on forward, everything will go smoothly. I hope that everything will start to be alright. I hope..

I sighed heavily for the fifth time. I know I put it here. Bakit biglang nawawala? I can't remember anything that I ate it already. I must know if I did. Hindi naman ako nagka amnesia. I am far from that. I look for it in every corner of the refrigerator.