I Love You, My Friend - Song Mingi

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I was sitting in the kitchen, drinking wine, talking with the maid while she prepared dinner. I had snuck into my fathers wine cellar, and picked up one of his most expensive bottles. He had placed metal bars in front of the wine room, almost like it was a prison cell. But it was pretty stupid. Because I didn't need a key. At all. I was skinny enough to get through the metal bars. My father wasn't very bright, was he? Maybe that's why I'm so stupid.
- your father will be joining you for dinner.
The maid said.
- I'm suddenly not hungry.
I said, making her laugh.
- you should at least try to mend your relationship with him.
She said.
- why would I do that?
I asked.
- because one day, it will be to late.
She said.
Well that's depressing.

I decided I would consider eating with my father. But only if he told me why my mother wouldn't talk to me, and where she was.
I waited an hour before he came home, and went to greet him in the hallway.
- How was your day?
I asked him, and faked a smile.
- why are you being so nice? Do you need money?
He asked me, making me laugh.
- let's eat dinner together.
I said.
- that would be nice. But do you still need money?
He asked me.
- well, yeah.
I said, and giggled.
- just take this card.
He said, and reached for his wallet, and pulled out a card.
- Cool.
I said, and took the card.

We went to the big living room, and sat down by the dinner table.
- did you do something productive today?
My father asked me.
- no.
I answered.
- maybe you should get a job.
He said.
- maybe.
I said.
- what would you like to do?
He asked me.
- maybe become a priest.
I said, and smirked.
- you're joking, right?
He asked me.
- I might become a nun.
I said, making him laugh.
I was actually having a good time, joking with him. But then I remembered what I was supposed to do.
- why is mother upset with me?
I asked him.
- it's better if you don't know.
He said, and sighed.
- Fine. Can you please just tell me where she is?
I asked.
- I told you to stop bringing this up.
He said.
- I'll never stop.
I said.
- Can we just have one nice moment without you bringing this up?
My father said, raising his voice.
- you're the one that makes this difficult.
I said.
- it's definitely you.
My father said.
- this is so fucked up.
I said, and got up from my seat.
I don't need this right now.
- go to your room.
My fathers said.
- I'm already on my way.
I yelled, and left the room, and walked up the stairs.
If he won't tell me, I'll just have to try one more time to find out on my own.
And I had one of his credit cards now. Money would probably get me far. I ran inside my room, and slammed the door shut.
- I'm gonna kill him one day.
I said to myself.
Where did that come from?
Maybe it was this house that made me feel insane.
I was about to pick a book to read from my shelves, when my phone rang.
Maybe it was seonghwa.
But it turned out to be Hongjoong. Why would he call me? I didn't know if I would answer, because to be honest I was scared that he would say something to hurt me. Not that I thought he was that kind of person...
I took a deep breath, and answered the call.
- Hello?
I said.
- I don't even know where to begin.
Hongjoong said.
- what do you mean?
I asked him.
- you're probably wondering why we've been ignoring you for so long.
He said.
I was so confused. Why would he think I didn't know why they had been ignoring me? What was going on exactly?
- it's just that I thought you had done something bad. But it turned out to be Seonghwa all along.
He said.
Seonghwa? What was he talking about?
Then I realized what was going on.
Seonghwa had taken the blame for me. Why would he do that? And... should I go with it?
It would be wrong. But if I did... I could see Mingi again. And that was all I wanted.
Ok seonghwa... I'll play along.
- It's been two months. That's how long all of you have been ignoring my calls.
I said.
- it's all my fault. I made that decision. I'm so sorry..
He said.
- what about Mingi?... I thought at least he would call.
I asked.
- I took his phone.
Hongjoong answered.
Did that mean that... Mingi had wanted to call me all this time? Even when he thought I had done something bad?
- could you.. come over?
Hongjoong asked me.
- I don't know.
I said.
- please?
He asked.
- I'll be there soon.
I said, and hung up.
Oh my god... is this really happening?
I was starting to freak out. Could I face them, knowing that seonghwa had taken the blame for me? My lies are getting too big, and I'm afraid I'll never be able to get out of it.
I decided to stop thinking about it, before I changed my mind about going to their dorm.
I ordered a taxi, since I had my fathers card, and told the driver to take me to the dorm.
I was talking to myself so much in the taxi that the driver asked me if I was ok.

When I arrived outside the dorm, I hesitated to nock. I was so nervous. But I forced myself to do it. My heart was beating so fast. What if I pass out? That was how nervous I was feeling.

The door opened, revealing Mingi.
He just stared at me for a moment.
- can you just wait one second.
He said, and closed the door.
What?
I nocked, and he opened the door again.
- I don't want you to see me cry.
He said, and closed the door again.
I opened the door on my own, and noticed that he was actually crying. I couldn't help but laugh.
- it's not funny.
He said.
- ok, I'll just come back another day.
I said.
- no!
He almost yelled, and embraced me.
It felt so god to touch him again.
- I don't want you to leave. Ever again.
He said.
- I never... thought you did something bad.
He said, as he let go of me.
- I've hated my life so bad these two months.
I said.
- I'll never let you feel that way again.
He said, and kissed me.
This is so much better than a dream.