I Love You, My Friend - Song Mingi

#46

• Mingi's POV•

I had been feeling so bad the past week, because I hadn't been able to talk to Sungyeon. But I would get my phone back later today because we had finally finished our first round of promoting our new album. We had two days to rest, so everyone was in the living room, playing on their phones. Except for seonghwa. He went to bed immediately after we came back to our dorm. He was in pain, both physically and emotionally after he fell on stage. So we all decided to just leave him alone. Our relationship these past days had gotten back to normal, after we both apologized to each other about fighting over Sungyeon. We had no right to do that anyways. Sungyeon could make her own decisions, and I wasn't doubting that she only loved me.
- Mingi, Maybe you should go to sleep.
Hongjoong said, as he looked up from his phone.
- I'm not tired.
I said.
Hongjoong was about to answer, but then someone nocked on the door. Everyone just stared at each other, like they were trying to intimidate someone to go open the door.
- Fine, I'll do it.
Hongjoong said, and sighed.
He got up from the couch, and went to the hallway.
- that was easy.
San said, and giggled.
- so easy.
Wooyoung said, and high fived San.
- being lazy isn't something to be proud of.
Yeosang said.
- you didn't get up either.
San said, and grinned.
I just looked at them, and rolled my eyes.

- I saw that.
San said.
- leave him alone, he's in a bad mood.
Jongho said.
- is it because Sungyeon called you annoying?
San asked.
- or is it because she called you stupid?
Wooyoung asked, and smirked.
- don't make fun of him.
Yunho said.
- but it was pretty mean if her, thought.
Yeosang said.
- I never really imagined she could be mean.
Yunho said.

- You think that was mean? Do you even know Sungyeon?

We all turned around to see Kyung standing in the living room. Oh right. He was coming over to discuss some changes in our album. Hongjoong was a bit worried about the lyrics in one of our songs. But he was like that sometimes. Kyung always managed to make him feel better about it.
- what do you mean?
Yeosang asked Kyung.
- She can be so much worse.
He answered.
- woah, now you have to tell us about it.
San said.
- no he doesn't.
I said.
I already knew that Sungyeon could be meaner, it was just that sometimes she wasn't aware of it, so I just pretended that it was nothing.
- I do have some stories.
Kyung said, and sat down beside me on the couch.
- I love stories.
San said, and giggled, making me roll my eyes. What a kid.
- well, one time she broke my wrist because I laughed at her goldfish dying.
Kyung said.
Wait, really? He laughed at her fish dying?
- you're joking, right?
Hongjoong asked, as he sat down on the couch as well.
- No. And she also ignored me for 4 years after that.
Kyung answered.
Had Sungyeon really broken his wrist? I know she could sometimes be violent, but not like that. It just didn't sound like her.
- and that's not all.
Kyung said, and laughed.
I just wanted him to stop talking. What was the point of telling us this things? It was in the past, and I didn't care, and I would never judge Sungyeon for something she had done in the past.
- I'm really liking where this is going.
Wooyoung said, making San laugh.
- One time, she set fire to her fathers new car because she wanted it to be pink, and it wasn't.
Kyung said, and laughed.
How is this supposed to be funny?
- that's insane.
Hongjoong said.
- and she was only ten at that time.
Kyung said.
- and then there was that time she pushed her brother down the stairs because he refused to wear one of her dresses.
Kyung continued.
I had to admit that hearing all this made me shocked, but it seemed like it was all a long time ago. Sungyeon was definitely not like that anymore.
- did all that really happen? It doesn't sound real.
Yeosang asked.
- it's real.. and it all happened before she was 13. Because they started forcing her to take pills after that.
Kyung said.
- does that mean she's like... sick in the head?
Jongho asked.
- well, the doctors said she had schizophrenia, but I don't she has it anymore.
Kyung answered.
I had heard enough. How could he just tell us all this like it was nothing? How could he do this to Sungyeon?
- you're a fucking asshole.
I suddenly said.
I wasn't supposed to say that out loud. Everyone was just staring at me, shocked. I never really talked like that. I'm so gonna get in trouble for this.
- I agree, you had no right to say these things about her. It's really, really personal.
Yunho said.
- I seriously think it's better that you guys know this now since she's around you all the time.
Kyung said.
I had lost all my respect for him now. He always seemed like he cared about Sungyeon a lot, so why would he do this?
- let's just go, Mingi.
Yunho said.

I glared at Kyung one last time, before I went to my room with Yunho.
- you should know... even if those things are true, I don't think Sungyeon is a bad person.
Yunho said.
- really?
I asked.
- yeah, if she was sick, it's not really her fault.
He answered.
- I just feel so bad for her.
I said.
- I think you should talk to her now. It's been a week.
Yunho said.
- yeah, I should.
I said.
- are you going to tell her about Kyung telling us all those things?
He asked me.
- I'm not sure...
I answered.
She deserved to know the truth, but it could hurt her. Because I finally understood why she never wanted to talk about difficult things. There was just too much.
But if she ever decided to tell me, I would try to make her feel better. Because I love her so much..

• Sungyeon's POV•

It had now been a week since the last time I saw Mingi. And he still wasn't answering my calls and texts. It was starting to feel like those two months when none of the Ateez members would talk to me. The worst part was that I couldn't even take one of those stupid pills to feel better, thanks to Seonghwa.
Why did he have to throw them away? He literally had no right. Maybe it was because I accidentally flirted with him. But I definitely didn't mean anything with it. I was just in a really good mood.

It was late, and I had given up on trying to call Mingi. I got dressed for bed, and went to find my cats. Momo just bit my hand, and ran away, but Milk followed me back to my room.
- I guess she's the evil twin.
I told Milk, and kissed her nose.
I got in my bed, and Milk laid down on the bed beside me.
- do you want to watch a movie?
I asked her.
She just stared at me.
- oh right, you're a cat.
I said, and laughed at myself.

Just as I was about to turn my phone off, Mingi's name and face suddenly appeared on the screen. He was calling me. He was actually calling me. I got so startled I dropped my phone, so it landed on my floor.
I picked it up, and quickly answered the call.
But then I froze. I had no idea what to say. Should I act happy.. or mad? Sometimes I just forgot how being normal worked.
- Sungyeon? Are you there?
Mingi asked.
- Uhm.. no?
I said.
- well, can you let me know when you are?
Mingi said.
- I'm here.. sorry.
I said.
- I'm sorry I haven't been answering your calls.
He said.
- that's ok. No, it's actually not ok.
I said.
- I know..
he said.
- I'm sorry I was rude..but I never meant anything that I said that day.
I said.
- it's ok. I shouldn't have asked you to tell me something you didn't want to.
He said.
- I just don't... like talking about things that make me act like that.
I said, and sighed.
- that's ok. You don't have to tell me anything.
He said.
- you could have at least texted me, Mingi.
I said.
- I'm sorry. I gave my phone to Hongjoong.
He said.
- really? He didn't tell me that.
I said.
- he's not really that bright, he just acts like it.
Mingi said, and I couldn't help but laugh.
- I've missed your laugh.
Mingi said.
- maybe you should record me laughing so that you can listen to it anytime.
I said.
- really? Can I do that?
Mingi asked.
- no.
I said, and giggled.

We talked for a while, but I was getting so tired that I almost couldn't pay attention to what he was saying.
- are you sleeping?
Mingi asked me.
- no, I'm still here, sorry.
I said, and giggled.
- I have to tell you something.
He said.
- ok.
I said.
- Kyung came to our dorm earlier, and he..
Mingi said.
- he what?
I asked him.
- uhm.. never mind.
Mingi said.
- I'll just let you sleep.
He continued.
- oh ok.
I said.
- can I see you tomorrow?
He asked me.
- maybe.
I said.
- maybe?
He asked.
- yeah maybe, maybe not.
I said, and laughed.
Obviously I wanted to see him tomorrow.