I Love You, My Friend - Song Mingi

#17

- You ruined my surprise.
I told Mingi.
- I was still surprised.
He said, and grinned.
- I don't even know why I wanted to surprise you.
I said.
- I know why.
Mingi said.
- oh yeah?
I asked.
- because you like me.
He said, and giggled.

- Let's go to our place.
Mingi said.
- our place?
I asked.
- did you seriously forget it already?
Mingi asked me, and frowned.
- No, I was just messing with you.
I said, making him laugh.
- let's go then.
He said, and took my hand.

We went up to the rooftop, and sat down on a bench.
- Your dress is nice.
Mingi said, and he was blushing for some reason.
- thanks.
I said.
- but it's too short.
He said, and looked at my legs.
- Don't look at my legs like that.
I said, getting nervous.
Maybe I wanted him to look at my legs.. but I definitely shouldn't.
- Here.
Mingi said, and took of his jacket.
Then he placed them over my legs.
- thanks.
I said.
He just laughed, and then he kissed my cheek.
- did I say you could do that?
I asked him.
- do I really have to ask every time I want to kiss you?
He asked me, and laughed.
- Yes.
I said.
- Fine. Can I...
He said, and moved closer to my face. My heart started beating fast.
- borrow your bow?
He then said.
- what?
I asked, and laughed.
He took my bow, and placed it in his hair.
- that's cute.
I said, and giggled. 
- You want to kiss me now, don't you.
Mingi said, and smirked.
- Nope.
I said, which made him frown.
Now I definitely want to kiss him.
But I was too nervous. Because yesterday.. was my first kiss. Ever.
- Do you want to go look at the flowers?
He asked me.
- Yes!
I said, maybe a little too enthusiastically.

We went to the greenhouse, and I ran over to the pink roses.
- these are the prettiest.
I said, and giggled.
- you're the prettiest.
Mingi said, and laughed.
- go away.
I said.
- Fine.
He said, and laughed.

He started walking away, but I stopped him by pulling his arm.
- you told me to go away.
He said.
- I changed my mind.
I said, and giggled.
- please let me kiss you now.
He said, and looked me in the eyes.
- oh... ok.
I said.

He kissed me, and I tried my best to kiss him back in the right way.
Oh shit.. I just bit his lip. And not on purpose.
- I normally wouldn't mind that... but you probably shouldn't use all the strength in your jaw.
Mingi said, and laughed.
- you're.. bleeding.
I said.
This is so embarrassing.
- it's ok..
Mingi said, and put his sweater against his lip.
- I'm so sorry.
I said, and looked at the ground.
I'm so stupid.
- Its ok.
He said, and laughed.
- it's sort of funny.
He continued, and grabbed my waist.
- But try not to that that again.
He said, and giggled.
- unless that's what you're into.
He said, making me push him away.
- You're not funny.
I said.
- so why are you laughing?
He asked me, and smirked.
I hadn't even noticed that.
- Wait here.
He said, and walked over to some flowers. Then he ripped one off from the rest of the plant, and walked over to me.
Why would he do that? Now the flower would die. I realized I was getting angry.. like I used to. And I couldn't hold it in.
- How could you do that?
I yelled.
- I was going to put it in your hair.
He said, looking surprised by my anger.
Stop it, Sungyeon.
- You just killed it!
I yelled.
Why am I being like this? Now he would hate me. Because this is who I am. And no one can love someone like me.
- I'm sorry. You're right.
He said.
..what?
- I guess I just never thought about it like that.
He said.
- You're... ok with me being mad?
I said.
- everyone gets mad sometimes.
He said.
- but I got mad over something stupid.
I said, and I felt like crying. I wish I hadn't acted like that.
- I think it's amazing that you care so much about flowers.
He said.
- Really?
I asked.
- Yeah. I've never met anyone like you.
He said.
Then he hugged me.
- thank god.
I whispered, but not loud enough for him to hear me.

- Ok.. lets date.
I said.
I wasn't expecting that I would say that. But I meant it. And I wanted it.
- Really?!
Mingi almost yelled, making me laugh.
- Yeah.
I said.
And then I kissed him.
Carefully, considering that his lip was hurt.

He can never know what I did.
My stupid.. cruel plan. The fact that I ended the plan, and tried to make it a good thing, didn't mean it was any less cruel.
And that's why he can't know.
Because I would lose him.
But did I have it in me not to tell him?
Because I was starting to like him. A lot.