I Love You, My Friend - Song Mingi

#21

Two months had passed since that day, and things were going so great I had almost forgotten about how it all started. Almost. And I wasn't afraid that I would end up telling them, either.
But if they did find out, they would probably.. leave me. And I couldn't let it happen. Luckily Chanhee and me was the only ones that knew about my stupid plan. but Kyung.. he probably still remembers the deal we had back then. But if they found out about that I could definitely find a way to justify it. But the other part.. would definitely make them hate me.

- Sometimes she just completely goes away.
Yunho said.
I was in their dorm, watching tv and eating. I had been here a few times, and everyone seemed to like me. Even Seonghwa had gotten used to me. But sometimes.. he would look at me in a way that I didn't understand.
- I think she has a whole world of her own, inside her head.
Hongjoong said, making everyone laugh.
- I'm sitting right here.
I said, making them stop laughing.
- We're just curious about what's going on inside your head.
Yunho said.
- Yeah, tell us.
San said, as he sat down beside me.
Everyone was looking at me now.
Well, not everyone. Mingi was in his room talking to his mother on the phone.
- I'm not as interesting as you think.
I said, and laughed.

Since I definitely couldn't tell them about what I had been thinking about, I decided to go inside Mingi and Jongho's room. Mingi finished his phone conversation as I walked in.
- Are they making fun of you again?
Mingi asked me.
- It's ok.
I said.
- I really want to kiss you.
He said, making me blush.
I knew that Yunho was aware of our relationship, but the others didn't know. Because it was forbidden. Mingi wasn't allowed to date me, so we had to hide it every time I visited their dorm. We couldn't even close the door to his room because it would look suspicious.
- Me too.
I said.
- let's just close the door.
Mingi said, making me laugh.
- I don't want to get you in trouble.
I said.
- I don't care anymore.
He said, and grabbed my waist, pulling me closer to him.

- That's cute.

I quickly moved away from Mingi, when we heard it. But it turned out to be Yunho. He just winked at us, and closed the door.
- well, I guess one kiss couldn't hurt.
I said.
Mingi pulled me closer again, and kissed me. But it definitely wasn't just one kiss. It was like we couldn't let go of each other.
He hadn't been able to spend as much time with me the past two months as I would like. We were lucky if we could have time alone twice a week. So every time we kissed, I always wanted more. And I knew he did too. We still hadn't slept together, but I was pretty sure we both wanted to.
- let's go to my place.
I said, in between the kisses.
- I don't know if Hongjoong will let me leave.
Mingi said, and frowned.
- just ask.
I said.

We went back to the living room. Everyone was still there. San and Wooyoung was arguing about who would get to eat the last piece of chicken. It was actually pretty funny. The funniest part was that meanwhile they argued, Hongjoong ate the last piece.
- wait.. where is it?
San said, when they noticed it was gone.
- Jongho ate it.
Hongjoong said.
- why does everyone blame me when it comes to food?
Jongho said, looking like he was so done with all of us. Everyone just laughed, so he left.
- Can I go to Sungyeon's place?
Mingi asked Hongjoong.
- To do what?
Hongjoong asked, making me want to laugh, but I managed to hold it in.
- I just.. need to discuss some things with producer kyung.
Mingi said.
I was struggling even more now, not to laugh. Because Kyung wasn't even home. He was on vacation.. with Chanhee. They started dating two weeks ago. At first I was a little upset, but when I realized how happy Kyung was, I decided not to comment on it. In fact I told them I was happy for them.
- Fine.
Hongjoong said, and sighed.

We left their dorm, and walked to the closest bus stop.
- I want to tell them about us.
Mingi said, as we waited for the bus.
- what if they tell your manager?
I asked.
- I don't think they will.
Mingi said.
- let's not make that decision right now.
I said, making him frown.
The bus arrived, so we entered and sat down in the back. I couldn't stop thinking about all the things we could do when we got to my place.
But I wasn't completely sure what Mingi wanted. We hadn't really talked about it a lot. I wanted to ask him if he wanted it now, as much as I did. So I did the most ridiculous thing I could come up with. I asked him in a text.
Sungyeon: let's do it... like today haha.
When I sent the message I couldn't stop laughing at myself.
I'm so awkward.
- did you seriously just text me right now?
Mingi asked.
- just look at the text.
I said, and giggled.
He looked at his phone, and then he couldn't stop smiling.
- are you sure?
He asked me.
- yes.
I answered. Mingi kissed my check, and laughed. He was blushing like crazy, so I started laughing again as well. When we got off the bus, we ran to my apartment. I got out my key, and I was so eager to unlock the door that I lost the key on the ground three times.
I eventually managed to opened the door.
When we entered, Mingi pushed me up against the wall, while he removed my jacket.
We went inside my room, and I pushed him down on my bed, and got on top of him. I took of my sweater, and helped Mingi remove his.
- I love you.
He suddenly said.
He.. loves me?
I had already realized that I loved him a month ago. But I had been waiting for him to say it first.
- I love you too.

AN: I'm literally dead.