Being Alone (D. Winchester)

"Let Me Fix This"

Night. Back in the normal world. In the woods.

Sam and i walked over to Dean who looked at us confused.

I coughed a little.

Dean looked at Sam and hugged him, forgetting for a second what we did to him. Thank god.

Sam hugged him back.

Dean then let go of him and hugged me.

I coughed a little. Feeling a burn in my throat. Something was wrong.

Dean "Purgatory, right? a real garden spot, ain't it?"

I nodded "yeah. "

Dean "did you get them out?"

Sam "only Bobby"

Dean asked confused "what?. I mean that's fantastic about Bobby. "

Me "Benny sacrificed himself"

He looked at me.

Me "A bunch of vampires showed up and he used himself as bait so that we could escape"

Dean nodded.

Me "Even if that didn't happen, I felt that he didn't wanna come back. I'm so sorry, Dean"

Dean shook his head "you're probably right. Su, oh, Bobby, how'd he hold up down there?"

I nodded "enjoyed it like a spa vaca"

Dean nodded.

Me "But he's fine, considering"

He nodded again "Let's put that old man where he belongs"

I nodded.

Sam pulled his sleeve back and i could see dad's soul shining in there.

He cut his wrist open and said some words.

Dad's soul jumped out and was going to raise to heaven but suddenly something black coated it, stopping it.

I froze, confused. 

Dean asked confused "the hell?"

Crowley "Hello, boys. Your majesty"

I turned to him growled "you son of a bitch!"

Crowley looked up to Dad's soul "Bobby Singer. I'd know you anywhere"

Me "Let him go, Crowley. He doesn't belong in hell"

Crowley nodded "he does if i say he does. He's inflicted untold damage on my kind. From where i sit, actually, hell's too good for him"

I shook my head "please, Crowley"

The brothers attacked him.

Crowley raised an eyebrow, amused  "Really?"

He thew the brothers back and pressed them against trees. 

Suddenly I felt like my body was on fire. I started to cough again.

I put a hand over my mouth and looked at it. 

Blood. I just coughed out blood.

Crowley asked confused "What's wrong?"

Suddenly there was this pain in my chest.

I crunched down to the ground and started to throw up blood.

My body was on fire.

I cried out in pain "What the hell?"

suddenly everything was blur and then everything went black.

At the bunker.

I gasped and jumped up. I was in my bed at the bunker.

Dean was sitting on the chair beside my bed, sleeping.

I asked confused "Dean"

He jumped up and breathed out relieved when he saw me "thank god you're okay"

I looked at him, panicking "Dad? oh my god what happened to my dad?"

Dean nodded and put a hand on my leg to calm me down "Calm down, he's in heaven. We finished the second trial"

I asked confused "how?"

Dean "Naomi, an angel, showed up and kicked Crowley's ass"

I nodded, relieved.

Dean nodded and took his hand away. 

I asked confused "what happened, Dean?"

Dean shrugged "You broke down. Turned out you should not go through that portal when you are half demon if the portal is only for humans. You should've told Sam to transport your soul back up here, Elena"

I shook my head "i couldn't"

Dean looked at me confused.

Me "Sam wasn't in the condition to carry two souls out. He was capable of carrying himself, Dad and me through that portal"

Dean said pissed off  "you could've died, Elena. You had inner bleeding. You're lucky you're capable of healing yourself"

I sighed "how long was i out cold?"

Dean shrugged " A few days. Charlie showed up but she left like an hour ago"

I nodded.

Dean "What's the last thing you remember?"

Me "I remember throwing up blood and then everything went black"

Dean nodded "Are you feeling better now?"

I nodded.

Dean nodded and stood up "good. i just wanted to make sure you were okay"

Then he walked to the door.

I got off the bed and walked over to him "Dean"

He stopped and turned to me "what?"

My voice broke "I'm sorry"

He nodded "i know"

I pleaded "Dean, please, just forgive me "

He looked down.

Me "Dean, please. "

Dean "I love you so much that it hurts, Elena. But i can't"

I shook my head "this is not fair! You went to live with Lisa and Ben while i was questioning myself what i had done wrong. Why you left. But you lied because Dad wanted you to lie. You continued to live that lie longer than i lied to you about Sam. And still i forgave you. What i did was half as bad as what you did and yet i was able to forgive you. "

He looked down. 

I pleaded "say something, please"

Dean looked at me with hurt eyes  "he loves you, Elena"

I shook my head " But i don't love him, Dean, I love you"

Dean shook his head. 

My voice cracked "I can fix this. Dean, Let me fix this. Tell me what to do to fix this, Dean, please"

He bit his lip, shaking his head "that's the problem, I don't think you can, Elena"

I let tears roll down my cheeks. 

He nodded, tears rolling down his cheeks and then he left.