Being Alone (D. Winchester)

2.26 Back At It Again

At home.Night.

I downed the drink and heard the front door open and close.

I turned around and saw Dean standing there "Are they okay?"

Dean nodded "yeah"

Me "so what are you doing here? shouldn't you be with them?"

Dean took a deep breath "we need to talk"

I shook my head, tried "but I don't wanna talk. I'm tired of all these lies"

Dean " then let me talk and listen"

Me "about what? How happy you were with them during that year?"

He shook his head.

Me "our about how much happiness it brings you hurting me?"

Dean shook his head "That's not true. Everything I did was for you"

Me "The last thing I wanted was seeing you in another woman's arms, Dean"

He shook his head "you don't understand"

I nodded "No, no, I do understand. You left with another woman and her kid to do god knows what and that's it."

Dean shook his head "I chose you, Elena"

I nodded "I could see that. You showed me that when you told me that you were only using me. That i was only toy to you"

Dean looked down shaking his head

I looked at him "or am I wrong?"

Dean "I chose you, Elena, believe me. "

I looked down.

Dean "But then something opened my eyes. I can't give you anything. You deserve better than that-Better than me"

I shook my head, hurt "I never wanted you to give me anything. I never wanted better. I just wanted you, Dean, you."

Dean nodded "I chose her to protect you. But I never thought how painful the prize would turn out for both of us"

I shook my head "don't act like you ever loved me. You used me"

Dean " i lied. I lied about not being in love with you"

Me "you want me to believe you that?"

Dean looked down.

I bit my lip and shook my head "I can't stop picturing you with her, Dean. It kills me."

Dean nodded "I know"

I shook my head "no, you don't. You have no idea how much I cried because of you."

Dean "I would give anything, even my life, to go back in time and change that one moment. "

Me "But you can't"

Dean "I want you back, Elena"

I shook my head "it's not that easy, Dean"

Dean nodded "it is. Try to remember what we had at the beginning, please"

Me "And you think that would make it better? It makes things worse, Dean"

He looked down.

Me "Let me ask you one question?"

Dean looked at me.

Me "Before we locked Lucifer in that cage, you and dad had a heated argument."

He looked down.