Being Alone (D. Winchester)

"Because I Love Her!"

Back at the bunker.

I walked back into my room, drying my hair with a towel.

I froze when I saw Dean sitting on the edge of the bed with my phone in his hand. He was pissed.

A voice mail was playing.

Sam "I'm sorry, Elena, okay? . I know it didn't mean anything to you but please just talk to me. Dean's gone and he's never gonna come back. You know that as good as i do. We don't have to feel guilty that it happened. It's time to accept that -"

Dean turned the voice mail off. By the look on his face he had been hearing that mail for over 10 times maybe more.

I gulped "I can explain-"

Dean threw the phone against the wall and i jumped at bit. 

Then he drove a hand down his face  "Crowley has been teasing me this whole time about you and Sam but I didn't listen. Because it was Crowley but then I asked Kevin of his point of view and he said that you and Sam got close and then suddenly you went separate way. So that got me thinking about what could've happened? I didn't want to believe it because you're my girl and he's my brother but then i saw the way you two acted around each other since i got back. You two were walking around egg shells around me"

I shook my my head "it's not what you're thinking, Dean. Just let me explain, please"

Dean "explain what? hm? that you're sleeping with Sam behind my back?"

I froze shaking my head "that's not true, okay?! I am not sleeping with him?!"

Dean "do you love him?"

I shook my head, annoyed "what? no? Dean, I love you"

Dean "I've asked you so many times- i've given you chances to tell me the truth . you swore on Bobby's grave nothing happened between you and Sam. You chose to lie to me, both of you"

I looked down.

He scoffed "tell me what happened, okay? help me understand how my girlfriend could sleep with my brother, please"

Me "You had been dead for months, Dean! I was going insane without you. Remember when I told you about the last time I asked a crossroad demon to make a deal?"

Dean nodded "He wouldn't do it because you're Alastair's kid"

I nodded "Sam found me and I broke down. I was crying about how much I missed you and all that"

Dean "and let me guess, you were seeking comfort and he gave it to you, literally "

I looked down.

Dean scoffed, shaking his head "While i was in Purgatory trying to find my way back to you, i can't believe it"

I felt tears coming up in my eyes.

Dean "why didn't you tell me sooner? Better question: would you've ever told me?"