Bey's POV "Fuck," I sighed to myself as I walked out of the bathroom and rubbed my forehead.
"What's it say?," Zendaya asked me.
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"It's negative," I sighed as I looked at the pregnancy test before sitting it down.
I walked past my sisters and Ashley feeling numb. I went and sat down on the couch before putting my face in my hands.
I took a few deep breaths in an attempt to pull myself together, but it was no use. It only took a few seconds before I broke down crying.
"Bey, don't cry. It's okay. It's gonna be okay," Solange said as they all came and sat next to me trying to comfort me.
"No, it's not okay! It's been three months since Jay and I started trying, and nothing's happened! I've been doing everything right! I've been eating right! I haven't been drinking! I even got a damn ovulation app on my phone!," I cried.
It's been three months since we were in New York for Jay's birthday. We had a wonderful rest of our trip. It was a lot of fun.
We went to a few Broadway shows. I took him to see a Brooklyn Nets game as a birthday surprise. He took me on my first subway ride.
"Have you been to a doctor to see if there's something wrong?," Ashley asked me.
"That's the first thing we both did. I'm healthy and fertile and so is Jay according to our doctors. At first I thought it might've been from the birth control implant or when Dad made me have an abortion, but it's not. We've been having more sex actually, and it's good sex. I just don't know what the damn problem is," I said.
"You're probably too stressed Bey. I'm a nurse. I've seen women go through this a lot. You've got so much going on with your company and the wedding, and now you're worried about getting pregnant. You're just stressed out. That's the only explanation. You've gotta let yourself relax," Zendaya told me.
"Yeah, this is supposed to be the happiest time of your life. You're about to get married. You're supposed to be planning your wedding. I know it's hard not to, but you can't worry about things that are out of your control," Ashley added.
"Just relax, and enjoy life Bey. I know it's difficult to not stress, but you've gotta find a way not to. You said it yourself. You and Jay are both healthy. There's nothing physically wrong. You're just stressing. Just try to stay calm and stop worrying, and when it's time for you to get pregnant, you will get pregnant," Solange said.
"Easy for you to say when it isn't happening to you. I'm not even pregnant yet, and I feel like a bad mom for not being able to conceive. I couldn't protect my first child, and I can't carry another. Maybe this is a sign that I'm not meant to be a mother," I sobbed.
