XXIV. A Beautiful Soul

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Janae P.O.V.

3 days later..

I walked through the doors avoiding looking at the casket but I still saw the shape in the corner of my eyes. I took a deep breath and proceeded through the line of people paying their respects. I saw Bri and the twins in front of me. The twins leaned toward the casket. They cried and my heart broke for them. They moved to their seats. It was my turn. I handed Jalynn to Jay and walked up with my parents. My dad held my hand as I looked over Trey's body. This wasn't him. I sobbed as I touched his lifeless face. My mom kissed his forehead and stepped back. I took out the necklace he bought me for my 13th birthday. 'Munch and Trey' was inscribed on the back of the heart with our picture on the front. I placed it in his hand pausing to look at his 'Munch' tattoo on his wrist. We got them to match for his 16th birthday. So many memories. I looked over him one last timethen kissed his forehead. "I miss you." I whispered to him. My dad gave me a hug and escorted me to our seats. The funeral was nice I assume. I tuned most of it out until it was time for the remembrance speeches.

Tyler: "This shit is so unreal." He caught himself cursing. "God forgive me. Trey this is not how you was supposed to go. I got Nae. For life. I got your family. The twins won't ever worry bout nothing. We miss you down here man."

Kyrie: "My brother. This was family. I'ma carry your name forever. He really held us together. I love you man."

Bryce: "Trey been by my side for as long as I can remember. This man is always thinking about everyone else makin sure they straight before himself. Life never gon be the same."

Jordan: "Trey this wasn't supposed to be you. We got your people forever man. We ain't never gon be the same. All you wanted was the money. We gon get it for you man. Believe that. We love you."

I watched as the strongest men I know cried and that hurt me to my core. Especially Tyler who was always smiling and cracking a joke. I've never seen any of them cry and it just hurts to see it.

Brianna: "When I heard the news I couldn't believe it. When I saw you" She paused and took a deep breath. "I'm sorry. That is not how I want to remember you. I want to remember you as the man that stayed up several nights when the girls get sick. Raised and taught them to be strong and smart and the beautiful souls they are today. When I look at them I see you inside of them. It's hard right now. But things will get better. I have to keep moving for them. I didn't just lose the father of my kids. I lost my best friend. My partner. My protecter. The person who can turn any bad day into the best day ever. Except for this one. This day can't get better. I will make sure our babies never forget how much they are loved by you. And in 7 months I will meet our newest addition and they will know how much they are loved by you." I froze at the announcement. "That's all you did was love. I am so grateful for the time I got to spend with you and I will keep living for you. I love you."

I was shocked when I heard her pregnancy announcement. I stared at her and then her belly and she caught my eye and I just looked away. It was my turn. Jay held Jalynn in one hand and my hand in his other. We walked up to the mic and he rubbed my back as I spoke.

"I don't know what to say that hasn't already been said. A beautiful soul. Truly. This was my best friend. Our whole lives we stood by each other's side. I was lucky enough to have somebody that I know would be there through everything no matter how much I mess up. Walking in a world that you no longer walk in is suffocating. I can't breathe. I will miss the talks the most. I just think of all the time I took for granted. The laughs, the tears, the good, the bad. If I have a son Trey is the person I would raise him to be. Giving, nurturing, protecting, loving. Trey wasn't perfect. None of us are. But he was perfect for me. He understood me in ways nobody ever has. I can't believe he is gone. I love you so much, and I appreciate you." Jalynn started whining and reaching out for me. I grabbed her and brought her with me. "We miss you so much. I love you. It's not goodbye. I will see you later." I said walking away.

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