Chapter 30
It was already two weeks after my mom's birthday and everything seemed to be working out very well about the decision I made and the relationship between me, Connor and Nate or so I thought. Connor already forgave me when I get back and we were okay, nobody was mentioning about our last argument, no hard feelings. We have been going out more frequently, yes I was giving him the chance that I should have granted him even before. It was fun, he was the perfect man a woman could ask for but there was this hollow feeling in my heart every time we were together. It was utterly stupid to think of someone else when you're with somebody but I couldn't make myself stop that I wanted to bump my head on a wall to get my thinking straight.
"You're going out again with that doctor tonight?" Genie asked as she spun with my chair childishly. I sighed and extended my leg, stopping the chair to spin and she glared at me as if I just took her candy.
"Yeah." I said as I continued organizing the blueprints piled on my desk.
"Well, you have a dreamy boyfriend and he seems to be head over heels on you... I am so jealous. And he always asks you out!" She said pouting a little, I wanted to correct her that Connor was not my boyfriend but that would only raise more unanswerable questions like what was my relationship with him exactly.
I cleared my throat, “Not really, he has something to tell me tonight so we are meeting up.” I said while it was also a question for me as to what it would be.
“He will probably propose tonight! 99% percent!” She said with a determined face and I erupted with laughter.
“I don’t think so, Genie… We still have things to uhm… talk about. I don’t know, it’s not yet the right time to talk about marriage you know.” I said, no, he could not ask me to marry him now… I did not know how I would answer; I did not want to end up doing something stupid and hurt him again.
Though I already have my decision… still I don’t know if I’m ready.
“But he’s perfect! And surely your daughter likes him.” She said, two weeks ago, my mother invited my colleagues in our house at Clayton because she wasn’t aware that nobody knew about my daughter and relationship with Nate so unfortunately they discovered my secret, well not that I was ashamed or something, I just didn’t want to gain unwanted attention or rumors. In addition, I was worried if it will stain Nate’s reputation.
At first, I thought they would think badly of me, but I was wrong, I think I underestimated my friendship with them because they were very cool about it. Of course, I had to explain to them without giving too much information as to how Nate and I ended up like that six years ago, I didn’t tell them lies but I did intentionally miss out some facts.
“She does, Connor has been there for me since my daughter was born.” I didn’t realize I was smiling while I was talking so when Genie giggled I looked at her weirdly.
“You’re in love missy!” She giggled and I gave her a small smile, of course, I love him, I have been in love with him…
“I am I love him.” I said softly, well it did feel good to talk about such things with someone else aside from Amy who has been nagging me to choose and whatever.
She squealed excitedly and grasped my hands with her own, “You should say yes!” she said nodding her head enthusiastically and I couldn’t help but to smile back.
“That I don’t know. I love him, Genie, I really do… but when I think about something like that… it’s just so wrong…” I said looking away, I was so stupid and indecisive and a bitch and stupid!
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