If We're A Fairytale (Completed)

Chapter 34

Chapter 34

Nate’s POV

I groaned as my head started pounding again, just a little movement and I could feel my skull breaking into two. I was lying on my stomach on the couch; slowly, I turned my head and took my vibrating mobile phone on the coffee table. It was already eleven in the morning, who the fuck was calling me at this time! My eyes squinted by the bright light from the screen—it was Kath. Fuck.

“Tell me where in the goddamn world are you!” She screeched making me wince as my head warned to crack. I forgot about the meeting with Empire Tower. Shit.

“Fuck, Kath. Lower it down.” I groaned and I could almost see her fuming and glaring on an innocent wall in the office. I did not care about anything right now, I just wanted to get lost and get fucking out of this damn life!

“Nathaniel Hughes, I know you are in some kind of emotional turmoil right now, but the firm needs you!”She said angrily, emotional turmoil. Ha! Like that could even explain how I was feeling right now.

“Do something about it without me.” I said dismissively, yanked the battery off my mobile, and tossed it in the couch as I dragged myself up, knocking some bottles of scotch in the process. I massaged my throbbing temples as I made my way towards my bathroom.

Jane’s confession two weeks ago flooded my mind, yet again. She was raped for chrissake and here I was, acting like a douche towards her all these time to the point that I resented her and I did say too many hurtful things to her. I was disgusted with myself, I was such a sorry excuse of a man, and how did it come to this?

I buried my face with my hand as new tears pricked my eyes but I refused to let it, damn! I could not even bear the thought of how much she suffered, emotionally and physically, and then she was pregnant. My heart constricted by the thought that my daughter was in danger and a new wave of remorse flooded my veins.

What am I supposed to do? What should I do? Ask for forgiveness? As if, an apology would erase everything that had happened, as if that would make everything okay! I wanted to scream, yank my hair out, I wanted to hurt someone… but all I did was to sit here and think of how much I disgust myself. Jane was such an angel, the sweetest and the most innocent girl… but that motherfucker had to ruin her life! He had to do that to her… and it pained me that I did not do anything for her at all. How did she cope up with everything?

The doorbell rang and I cursed under my breath, why not people just go on with their own lives, why did they have to disturb me?

I padded my way towards the intercom, “What!” I snapped and my mother’s calming voice buzzed.

“Nate, it’s me.”I sighed Kath must have called her! I unlocked the door for her and slumped on the couch without waiting for her to let herself in.

I saw her standing in front of me with her hands resting on her hips as she looked at me sternly, “Ma, now is not a good time!” I said sounding like a whining teenage boy, but I just did not want anybody, even my own mother poking their noses in my business.

She sighed without saying anything and started picking up cans and bottles on the floor; despite her calm outer appearance, I could almost hear her shouting. She then turned at me, with her arms full of empty beer tin cans. “Fix yourself Nathaniel.” She ordered and I just stared at her incredulously, as if she could order me around like I was a ten year old boy! I was twenty-five for chrissake!

“Now.” She reiterated, daring me to say anything. I stood up begrudgingly, made my way towards my bathroom, and started stripping. Demanding mother!