Amnesia

Chapter 16- Moving On?

Day by day I start to forget all of the pain Ive endured lately, its starting to feel like Ive forgot about the past and all that matters to me now is the future.

I carry on with my everyday routine now, I study hard, relax, enjoy my free time, and most of all I have no more worries. Hakuna Matata everybody! *insert music

Ive also socialized with more people lately, some of them were, Camille, Coleen, Yzabel, Xyra and they bring down the best of me, but Isabel is always my number priority, I cant stand to not be with her, shes like, the reason I wake up everyday now, without her I have no idea what I would turn out to be.

"Hi Mike, whatcha doin?" Isabel approached.

"Nothing really, just doing my day to day tasks, why?"

"Uhmm, I wanna know, are you gonna join this weeks Investiture Camp?"

"Yeah, how bout you?"

"I think I cant, but I can stay and practice but I wont attend the official program."

"Oh, why is that?"

"I don't have the Girl Scout Uniform." She laughs.

"Oh why oh why oh why? Why does Pookie not have the uniform? You're the owner of a 5 star Hotel, your family owns a corporation."

"I just don't want to attend the program, thats all."

"Oh, well why didn't you just say so?" I laughed.

"I heard Jewe..-."

"Who?"

"Oh, I forgot Im sorry Mike."

"Its okay, I don't really care about her anymore."

"I better go, the teacher is calling all the girls now, see ya later Mike."

"Ok see ya."

An hour later we too practiced for our own Investiture, it was so boring and to make it worse it was so hot, nobody could withstand the heat of the auditorium, it felt like Hell inside the audi, so I decided to go up the classroom.

As I was walking up the stairs I saw someone, but I didn't see it properly as she or he was running so fast, I continued to walk up and I heard someone shout "Mike!", I looked around confused as I was the only one on the 3rd floor, I decided to take a nap inside the room.

"Mike! Its me Jewel! How have you been?"

I quickly woke up as if I were being shot at the back of my foot.

"What the Hell was that?! Why was I dreaming about her?" I asked myself.

I continued to sleep and a few minutes later someone taps my shoulder,

"Mike, wake up, its already dismissal, we need to go."

My eyes were so blur I couldn't see well after waking up, but the image was starting to mix in, I saw..

"Jewel?!" As I quickly jumped.

"What? Its me Isabel."

As I wiped my eyes, it clearly was Isabel and not Jewel,

"Im sorry Isabel, I thought you were Jewel, I had dreams about her earlier and I don't know why."

"Maybe you miss her? Maybe its a sign?" She asks.

"No, I haven't thought about her ever since already, in fact, we should even be talking about her right now, its bringing me bad memories."

"Okay Im sorry Mike,"

Later that night I couldn't sleep, I saw fragments of my memories, of our memories.

"Why am I thinking about her?! I thought she left my mind months ago, why is she still here?!" As I threw my pillow across the room.

Maybe, just maybe, Isabel might be right, I keep on thinking about her because, because, I miss her, but that cant be true, I should just think about new memories.

Sadly, that made it even worse, I thought about new memories and those new memories that popped up were me and Jewel in the future, smiling, happy and all we were so..-

"Dammit, why are you still inside my head Jewel?! Why do you still haunt me?! I thought you didn't want me to talk to you but look at me now, Im talking to an imaginary you all because you keep going through my mind."

Tears rolled down my faces as I tried to sleep, but I know I should fight it, I wiped my face like there was no tomorrow, and surprisingly I actually got to find some goodnight sleep.

The next day it was the investiture and Isabel didn't attend, so I decided to hang out with JM and Iven, we strolled around the school grounds while the girls were preparing for the program, we went inside the canteen then..

I saw her and she saw me, we had a complete eye to eye contact, it was just for a second but it felt like almost a thousand years, she looked like she wanted to tell me something but didn't, I just ignored the fact she was right behind me sitting in the table with her mom,

"Lets go JM, its kinda hot inside the canteen."

As we left, I had my final glance at her, she seemed broken, she didn't look fine at all, as if she was enduring the same pain as I did.

"Was she going to tell me something? If I went back and talked to her would she reply back?" I asked myself.

I thought to myself,

"Why is this happening? Is God doing his tricks again? Is he playing with me again?"

I should definitely move on, knowing I did, so many months ago but I wanted to say it out loud, so loud even she can hear it and so I did,

"IM MOVING ON!!!!!!!?"

I quickly coughed and wondered,

"Why, why don't I feel relieved after shouting that?"