Gratsu Oneshots

•I Like Your Arms•

Hey hey hey, I'm currently writing a part 2 for Remember Us, so look forward to that. I also have some good angst in the works.

TW for cutting and self harm

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Gray didn't deserve him. No one did, actually. But Gray was sure someone deserved him more than he did. He took advantage of his forgiving nature and he wanted to stop.

Every time Natsu saw the fresh scars on his wrists Natsu always forgave him and said it was okay as long as he didn't do it again.

But he did. He did it again and again, knowing Natsu would always forgive him. Natsu wouldn't leave Gray.

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It was 2 AM and Natsu was sound asleep in the room. Gray was sitting in the bathroom sobbing. He hated himself so much.

It started off as self-loathing. The small and tiny voices in his head spewing insults and making him feel unworthy. Every time Natsu complimented him and made him feel good about himself, the horrible voices would shut that feeling down.

Natsu was a heavy sleeper to Gray could cry as loud as he needed to. He let out silent tears as the razor carved gentle lines into his soft skin. The silent open-mouthed tears came after he made some "pretty patterns" as the voices called it.

The loud, heartbreaking sobs came once he realized how hurt Natsu would be.

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Gray slipped back into bed and into Natsu's arms sometime after 2:50. The red fluid washed away and the cuts and lines and zigzags and squiggles carefully embraced by bandages.

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Natsu slowly opened his eyes, delighted to see his lovely boyfriend cuddling into his chest. He tightened his arms around him and let out a satisfied sigh.

Natsu saw the bandages coating a small portion of his boyfriends arms and he knew. He wasn't exactly asleep last night, so he heard every cry and every whimper of pain. It took all his willpower not to barge into the bathroom and hold Gray.

Gray made a small noise to signal he was awake and Natsu loosened his arms just enough for him to stretch. He made eye contact with Natsu before quickly looking away out of guilt.

"Hey." Natsu said, slowly bringing his hands up to slowly caress Gray's arms. "Hi." Gray's response was quiet, almost like he would get in trouble for being too loud.

"Are you okay? You seem tired and shaken up." Gray took a deep breath before slowly nodding his head.

Natsu moved his arms up to Gray's shoulders all the way to his elbows, skillfully avoiding his bandages. Natsu's delicate fingers slowly traveled to Gray's shoulders, making their way to cup his face.

Natsu gently turned Gray's head to look at him. Natsu brushed his thumbs over Gray's cheeks. Making sure Gray was still looking at him he removed his hands and continued the soft caress up and down his arms.

"I like your arms." Natsu broke the silence.

"Yeah?" Gray felt an overwhelming amount of guilt. He felt so bad, and the voices started yelling, saying it was his fault he made himself feel this way and he agreed.

"I hurt them. Last night."

"I know. I heard."

Gray's breath caught in this as he looked at Natsu who grabbed his hands and placed gentle kisses onto his knuckles.

Stinging tears came to his eyes and his voice was heavy with guilt and regret. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." His voice had taken a very heavy accent because of the tears that threatened to fall.

Gray tightly closed his eyes and started breathing hard. Natsu gently kissed Gray's eyelids, making the once tightly closed, relaxed.

"It's okay. I'm not mad. I have an idea."

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Natsu's solution worked quite well actually. He got Gray a bunch of rubber bands and had him place them on both of his wrists.

Whenever Gray felt the urge to hurt himself, instead of going to get a razor, he would pull back the rubber band and let it go onto his wrist. It gave the feeling of cutting and stinging but he wasn't actually hurting himself.

Natsu threw away all Gray's old razors and stayed with him in the bathroom if he shaved. Natsu didn't want to treat him like a baby but it was just to make sure.

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Almost a year and a half into recovery and Gray had less and less rubber bands coating his wrists. He always felt self conscious about his scars and it made him feel as if he wasn't good enough. Who would want someone who used to hurt themselves?

Natsu walked into the living room, and seeing Gray poking his scars told Natsu what he was doing.

He slowly walked over and sat down as not to scare Gray and he gently grabbed his arms.

Gray looked at his boyfriend and his boyfriend looked back with love in his eyes. The voices always told Gray it was a look of pity but Gray ignored them.

Natsu brought Gray's arms to his lips and placed small kisses on each one. He didn't stop until every scar, no matter how big or small, was kissed.

"Better?"

"Better."

The voices weren't so loud when Natsu was around.

Word count : 875