Dear Carson

Strange Dreams With Real Tears

10/25/14:

Dear Carson...

Okay, okay.. I was pretty upset...

You'll have to excuse that...

Anyways..

I had a dream. Like a real dream. Not a nightmare like usual. It was real.

I was walking around at night in the neighborhood and went to Grandads. When I walked up the porch you were there. I told you to leave and you said no. And I said fine and went to go inside but you grabbed my wrist. I told you to stop and asked why you were here. You didn't say anything so I got angry and said I hated you and wanted you to go home.

You said no you don't, and I know that for fact. I snuck out because I miss you and Trevor and Bethany. My real friends.

And I said well you can miss all you what but I doubt we will ever be friends again.

And you said we can.

Then you kissed me.

Why? I don't know!

I started crying when you did.

I even kissed you back.

We just stood there.

I looked at you and you told me to please don't cry.

And when I woke up, I was crying. My pillow was soaked with tears.

I have no idea of what is wrong or why I dreamed of something like that.

It was all wrong and all just a dream, and nothing close to reality.

But part of me,

Wishes it was..