Dear Carson,
Lately I've written, a poem or two. I miss you like crazy. This one is dedicated to you.
I'm tired of this emotional pain
lets play something new
its called the physical game
its the only way
I beg of you
to let me feel something too
keep the monsters calm and tame
beat me black and blue
I love the bruises purple and new
and visible in sight
no one but you
can keep your place
hold my neck tight
beat me til I'm black and blue
emotional pain is an empty space
I only want to be struck by you
I want to feel more than heart
I want a different view
make me into something like art
make me scream, make me cry
salty streams from my eyes
take a blade
jam it in my wrist
and this time be my aid
hit me with your fist
my adrenaline rushes
upon my face a wicked smile
blood gushes
hit me for awhile
whisper for me to hush
then patch my wounds
hold my cheek
help me from the ground
I'm still weak
pull me close
tickle my skin
kiss my nose
forget our small sin
let me stay in your arms
let me sleep this all away
protect me from all my harm
be my reason for me to stay
I'm tired of my emotional pain
so lets play something new
its called the physical game
where you literally beat me
black and blue
Yeah I know, it's kind of cheesy. Hehe. But don't take the poem in the wrong way. In the book "words with meaning," this poem is in it, and I've explained some of what the poem means...
I have no idea of why, but it excites me at the thought of you hitting me, or hurting me physically.. You know how weird I am.. It's just something I've thought of recently... It's really strange.. I know. Bedtime's fallen short, I've got to go!
Kay I'm done.. Lol. I've just been so into my poetry lately... Anyways. I love you and miss you and wanna see you and like, nothing really new, that I've said.
Like, I wouldn't want anyone to hurt me or anything emotionally. But I wouldn't let anyone but you hurt me emotionally and physically and I kind of wish you would hit me.... At least I wouldn't be numb anymore.. I would actually feel something..
11/18/14
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Dear Carson
Cerita PendekDear Carson, do you ever think about me? Do you ever miss me? When you hear our song, does it make your heart ache? Or does it remind you of us? Or do you still not care? You hurt me. You really did. You still do. I don't thinks you realize the pain...
