12/6/14:
Dear Carson,
I'm going insane. I'm finally breaking. You have no idea of how much I miss you. I need your presence. I need you here by my side. I need you. I need you. I need you. I need you like I need air. I want you here. I'm going crazy with this small talk. Im going crazy with unanswered questions. I'm going crazy with being shut out. Im going crazy without seeing you. I'm going crazy without hearing your voice. I'm going crazy without your love.
Please. Don't leave me. Don't get use to me not being there. Keep talking about how sad you are without us. Keeping trying and eventually they will give in. Please. Tell me you love me.. You have to love me. You must love me.. We were so in love and close before this all happened.. Convince me that you haven't forgot about what we were.. Please. I'm tired of us acting shut down and like we can't do anything about this. Like they have to make the rules. Please. Don't act like this is the end... Come on! You are the only person I want to be with. The only person I want to kiss and fall asleep too. The only person I want to be a wife of. The only person that I would be willing to change my last name for. The only person I want to raise a family with. The only person I want to grow old with. The only person that keeps me from wanting to die.
The only person, I really love.
There's a ton of people here for me, but none of them matter if they are not you. I would trade them all for you. Please.
I.need.you. I.miss.you. I.love.you.
And you have no idea of how much meaning these words have.
None at all.
Im breaking without you.
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Dear Carson
Historia CortaDear Carson, do you ever think about me? Do you ever miss me? When you hear our song, does it make your heart ache? Or does it remind you of us? Or do you still not care? You hurt me. You really did. You still do. I don't thinks you realize the pain...
