Dear Carson

Lately

11/6?/14
12:00 am
Dear Carson,
I haven't written much. I've just been dealing with things silently. We facetimed yesterday and it was crazy. It felt like nothing ever changed or ever happened. You were the same ole goofball that I miss. I wish I could see you. Life is so different without you in mine. I miss everything. I find myself lost. What will my life be? And which direction do I go? I try to remain strong and not think or talk about what happened. I'm just silently hurting. You were my other half.
I realized I never got into arguments with you. I got along with you perfectly. I can only think of two small arguments, and they were long ago. I also realized that I never got tired of seeing you either.
It's crazy. It's been a month and like two weeks. I saw you at Bethany's game this week and ride the bus once. It's was so strange. I hate being so distant. How did what we did, lead to this? I just don't understand. Part of me feels like after time has set in, that all will be forgiven and go back to normal. Honestly, this won't last forever. This separation. I'll see you around here and there. I'll defiantly see you in HighSchool. I'll even have a few classes with you, for sure.
Eventually we will become adults, and our parents can't do anything if we hangout again or decide things on our own. I honestly think God is working on an amazing plan.
This happened for a reason, and I think I know why.
P.s. You never check Chatzy.
Good-Night, for now.