10/21/14:
Dear Carson,
It's strange really.
We went from being the two closes people, to almost complete strangers. We hardly talk now. Next week will be a month without physically hangout and seeing each other. This new life of mine really sucks. I never knew you would be taken out of my life like that. It happened so quickly. Your feelings died so fast for me. I'm not even quite sure of what happened yet. Didn't you love me? Did you even care? Or did you just want someone to love, or to be loved, and I was the closes and easiest person? I'm just so confused. I'm so tired of being here. I want to go else where. I really have no reason to stay here anyways. Everyone is distant from me. Most of my week ends are spent sleeping and doing nothing. Friends hardly come over. Not even Trevor. He gets so tired and bored of just going to moms and his dads that he goes out with Victoria and other friends like that instead. Everyone is giving up on me. I'm given up on me too. I wouldn't blame them. I'm not worth fighting for. No one is terrified of loosing me. Why should they be? Exactly. No reason at all. I realized that nobody even really cared for me. No one.
This has really opened my eyes to who people really are. People are monsters. Honestly, I want out of my life.
I.Need.Out.
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Dear Carson
Cerita PendekDear Carson, do you ever think about me? Do you ever miss me? When you hear our song, does it make your heart ache? Or does it remind you of us? Or do you still not care? You hurt me. You really did. You still do. I don't thinks you realize the pain...
