speak. • sequel to mute. • muke au

idiot.

Michael.

I ran upstairs and into our shared bedroom, tears filling my eyes as I slammed the bathroom door. I clicked the lock and slumped against the wall. My hands went to grip at my hair as the hot tears rolled down my face.

All I could think of while Luke was kissing me was of him...and her. I mean, it wasn't true...it couldn't be.

But what if it was?

His lips grazing mine, his hot breath against my neck leaving me feeling warm and loved. Is that what she felt? Is she even real? Does he love her? Does she even exist? What if she's in the same situation I am in? What if she loves him and she knows...she knows about us? Would she try and split us up? Is this person a real living breathing creature? Was Calum just making her up?

Or was he telling the truth?

Wouldn't Luke tell me?

Is he going to leave me?

I feel physically sick, but nothing compare to the aching in my heart and the confusion in my brain. If she was real, and if he loved her, what will happen? Will I just cease to exist in his life, live nothing but a memory in his mind?

I jump at the sound of knocking, a strangled sob leaves my lips and I quickly clamp my hand over my quivering lips.

"M-Michael?" he says through the door. This doesn't feel real...he feels so far away, in reality only a wooden door separates us, but it feel like more. "Michael please-" he let's out a shaky breath. "What is it? Please talk to me...it's okay if you didn't want to..ya' know."he mumbles.

I feel so childish...he didn't cheat on me. He wouldn't. I love him and he loves me and we have a family. He wouldn't. I wipe away stray tears and check my reflection in the mirror. My face is flushed, eyes red and puffy. "Shit.." I softly curse to myself. Fuck it.

I fling open the door, immediately wrapping my hands around Luke.

"I'm sorry..." I mumble into his shirt. His arms find their way around my body as well.

"Michael...I'm confused..."

"I'm sorry, it's not you, I just thought that-you know what, never mind. It doesn't matter because I know it never happened." I rush out.

"Um, what?"

"It doesn't matter, just kiss me." I grab hold of his neck and roughly kiss him. I push him onto the bed, not breaking the kiss. I straddle his hips and go to kiss his neck but he stops me.

"Michael." he firmly says.

"W-what?" I ask innocently.

"Tell me what the hell is wrong right now."

"I just-I thought something happened, but it didn't. He lied. I don't know why but he did, I know you would never do that to me. I mean it would be the worst thing to ever happen. I love you so much, I don't know what I would do without you. If that were ever to happen, it would kill me Luke. But don't worry I don't beleive a thing he said. I mean, if it meant nothing, you would've told me. I know you would've. But it doesn't matter, because it didn't happen. I love you...and I'm an idiot." I finally smile.

"I still don't really understand..."

"Oh, um" I pause. "Calum told me that he saw you yesterday with some girl and that you two were making out in our car. But don't worry, I don't believe him. I'm an idiot for even thinking that you would ever do that to me, or to April. And I'm sorry, I was just worried, I can't loose you." I look up, he was pale and had a blank expression. "Luke, it's okay. I know you would never do that." I smile again.

"Yeah, I could never hurt you, never ever. I love you Mikey..." he says, but it feels like he is talking more to himself than to me. "Can we just cuddle until it's time to pick April up?" he asks sweetly. I nod.

We snuggle under the covers, his head resting on my chest and i breath in his sweet scent. I genty stroke his hair, a weight leaving my shoulders. Luke however, remains tense and cannot seem to relax.

"Kitten, what is it?" I ask him after a few moments.

"W-what? Nothing I'm fine." he lies.

"Kitten?"

"Yeah?"

"You're lying."

"I know."

Is this because I refused sex with him? Is that what this was? Did he feel rejected? Hurt?

I lean down and kiss his head, moving down to his collar bone, his jawline and finally his lips. It turns heated quickly, he begins to tug on my hair, erupting moans from my throat. I feel him smirk into the kiss. He finally relaxes, his lips melting into mine, the feeling of pure bliss over takes my body.

Before I know it, clothes are strewn across the room. We were as close as we could get and yet I still needed more more more...I couldn't get enough of him. Luke was everything, and i wanted it all.

"M-Mikey." he moans.

I trial kisses down his back and pick up my pace.

"So beautiful..." I mumble against the delicate skin. He whimpers underneath me. I was in complete euphoria my only thoughts were lukelukeluke. I was intoxicated in his love, of our love.

"I love you Michael." he stutter out just before he lets out a long groan.

I kiss just under his ear, whispering, "I love you more kitten."

That was all it took for him to come undone beneath me, me following only seconds later. I roll next to him and I pull the blanket over us. Our fingers find each other, lacing together.

"I don't know how I could've thought that for a second...I'm such an idiot." I grin, kissing him again.

that is the closest ill get to writing smut.

k?

k.

I feel awkward. sorry.

hugz and tickles.

-carlee