speak. • sequel to mute. • muke au

calum.

I just wanted to say thank you to you all you were understanding about my little family situation ily guys so much u seriously dont understand. it makes me really happy that i know I have people here to help me through stuff and i feel so blessed for all of you:) this thanksgiving i am thankful for YOU. all of you are just incredible and i just wanna hug u all.

thank you so much<3

soooo yay double update cuz i feel bad the last one sucked!

hugs and tickles

-carlee

p.s im honestly about to fucking kill my mom cause she said luke's nose looked fucked up and that michael clifford was fucking UGLY i swear to God im going to smoother her in her sleep{but she did say that they were good singers}

(omg calum's pov get ready bitches)

Calum.

Oh my God, he was beautiful...

His blonde hair was perfectly sculpted, his eyes could cure fucking cancer. Holy shit...was that a lip ring? My heart was pounding in my chest as I watched him, he was so goddamn beautiful.

I was watching him gaze out the window, he was watching people walk around the streets. I watched him from the next building over, he was sitting in a small cafe attached to the library, while sat here. I was trying to do my work, but i couldn't help but stare at him. I had never felt this way...,it was a burning sensation inside of me...it was erupting and making my stomach flutter.

I check my watch...my lunch break was in a few minutes. I guess I could leave a little early. I gather my wallet and quickly stride to the next building, hoping to see the blonde. Just as I was about to reach for the handle it swung open, nearly knocking me over. A petite girl scurried out, tearing sliding down her cheeks. She bumped into me.

"S-sorry." she choked out. She didn't keep walking, she stood there and cried. She moved her glasses and wiped her eyes.

"Are you alright?" I ask, beginning to get concerned. She only shrugged.

"Just some asshole...it's nothing." she mumbled. I peek into he cafe, a could make out a chair being pulled out across from the blonde boy as he smiled. I didn't catch who it was that sat across from him. But I obviously couldn't talk to him now...

I sigh and look at the weeping girl in front of me.

"Hey, do you wanna talk about it? We can go get lunch?" I ask her, she gives me a small smile and nods.

"I'm Kat."

"Calum."

I remember that day so vividly. I also remember the awful day I found out he couldn't be mine. I met Kat and I knew that she would be a good distraction from the blonde boy that was on my mind 24/7.

I wondered how great his smile probably looked, his eyes were probably scrunch together...it would be perfect.

But I couldn't like him, he was a boy. I wasn't gay. I mean, I have nothing against gays but I knew for a fact I was straight...so why couldn't I stop thinking about him?

Kat helped some, but he was still in the back of my mind all day.

My heart nearly stopped when I saw him again.

He was with him, he was with fucking Michael. He looked so damn good, how could he be real? Oh my God, when I said hello he blushed at me and I nearly jumped off the roof. Tingles erupted in my stomach and I felt like I was going to puke...in a really good way.

And he was a mute.

Shouldn't I think that was weird? I didn't, if anything, it made me more crazy about him. I wanted to be the one to kiss him and hold him and tell him everything was going to be okay. My heart shattered when Luke looked so upset and ran t the bathroom. My heart was shattered even further when Michael went after him. I wanted to be the one to comfort him, not Michael.

It was awkward as Kat and I sat there. Waiting, knowing what was happening. They came out with ruffled hair and pick lips. Luke looked breath taking. Why couldn't I have caused the pink flush in his cheeks?

I never stopped thinking about him, especially when they started to get intimate. I remember walking in on Luke in his boxers, hickeys adorning his gorgeous neck. It made me sick. I wanted to make those marks, I wanted to claim him as mine. I wanted to make him feel loved, it was driving me absolutely insane.

Everyday I fell deeper and deeper for Luke, and everyday I despised Michael more and more.

Sure, I loved Kat...but I was in love with Luke.

It made me feel like complete shit because I was so damn jealous of Michael that I wasn't even happy that Luke was happy. I am a selfish inconsiderate asshole. I wanted to be the one who made him happy. I had to be the one to do it, I knew how, but I didn't know how to have him let me.

Then and opportunity came up.

I saw Luke and Ava together. I knew he didn't like her, I could tell by the way he glared at her every time her back was turned. I also know that Luke pushed her off and that he didn't want her to kiss him.

But that would work. I tell Michael and he'd be pissed. I would be there for him and he would finally see what was right in front of him all along.

Then, another opportunity arrived, just in time too.

I saw Michael at the bar, Maggie clutched to him, drunk.

I slipped something in his drink when he turned the other way. It was my fault. He couldn't control himself and he didn't remember what he was doing or why.

He cheated on Luke and it was my fault, he couldn't control his actions. Even if he tried, which I'm sure he did.

I hated myself for it. But it was for him. It was for Luke, everything I ever did was for him. I had Jonathan, I knew how much he loved him and I knew that he wanted him. And I really do love April, I can see it now...our happy litle family. I could kiss him whenever I wanted.

I could make him feel so loved, physically and emotionally. I am never going to give up on him.

I am in love with Luke Hemmings.

Now I just need him to fall for me.

OMG SO SCANDALOUS

guys im sososo excited for the third book like you don't even freaking know!!!

no this isn't the last chapter

buts gona be soon and then THIRD BOOK

im so excite...so excite

And honestly thank you so much to everyone who supported me and told me everything was going to be okay and that i should do what i want with my life it honestly means the world to me knowing i have people there that actually care. I really do love you guys and I just want to hug u all!!!! *virtual hugs*

i love you so much and thank you<3

hugz and tickles

-carlee