Later it was cake time. Because there were a lot of us there were 3 cakes. By the decorations you could whose cake is who's. Donnie's was shaped into a 50. And there was mine which had balloons one side but on the other side had a marzipan man with a bandage on the knee. I got that part of the joke. At the bottom was an ambulance, the part of the joke was it crashed into the side of the cake. When I saw that, I went into proper PTSD panic mode. I was shaking, trembling and sweating. Nobody could snap me out of it not even my brother Jon could.
"Hey, Jordan. You okay bro" asked Jon. I just stared at the cake not even blinking. I was staring into space. "Everyone go inside please. Especially the kids".
" Hey J".
"I guess he wasn't ready for the joke then".
" Jordan". Nothing. Jon tried to shake me a bit. Nothing. Donnie snapped his fingers in front of me. Nothing. Joe removed the ambulance from my cake to see if that would take my glance from the cake. There was Jon, Joe, Donnie and my mom there all trying to wake me from my trance. I was trembling all over.
"We need to be careful as the last time he done this, he went into a seizure. So watch him".
And that's what happened...
I had another seizure...
* * * * * *
That was a couple of hours ago. I somehow woke up in my bed. The last thing I remember I was sat at the table waiting for cake. I don't remember anything about me ending up here. How did I end up here?. I don't know how long I have been lying but I soon hear my door open.
" Hey, you are awake" replied a voice "You gave us quite a scare earlier". I look over. Mom.
" I'm sorry," I said, "What happened?".
" Don't remember then" she replied as she sat on my bed next to me. I shook my head no. "We finished dinner and had brought out three cakes to celebrate three birthdays yours, Donnie's and Dante's with the whole family and band family". I look at her I still couldn't remember. " When you saw your cake you spaced out. No one could snap you out of it". I closed my eyes trying not to remember "They said you have done it before while on tour having a meeting about you in the band". I nodded. I remember that. I went to stay with Caitlin and later home after that and refused to go back because I thought I knew the outcome.
"But it has been months since the last one".
" Since you got diagnosed with PTSD. I have been researching it to get a better understanding of it. It does seems that its that is causing your seizures because of stress. You weren't ready for the guy's joke yet". I shook my head no.
"Can't look at any of it anymore, any crash on tv, in papers or on the internet. None of it".
" I know it must have been traumatic and probably is still". As I am still laying in bed and she is sat next to me, she stroked my hair and forehead pushing any hair out of my eyes. Still the only one I won't flinch away because she is touching my scar. I move into her touch like a vulnerable child would do even though I'm an adult, you still need your mothers touch to relax you. "Why don't you tell me about your break".
" I should go back outside with the others," I said opening my eyes and looking at her.
"Why don't we go out in a bit and you tell me about this girl that makes you happy? Are you going to bring her over for Thanksgiving?. I would like to meet her".
YOU ARE READING
Never Alone(Sequel to Back to Life)
Fanfiction(Completed) Jordan Is now has slowly recovered from the effects of the accident they had on tour last year. If he is really going to recover he will need to find that special someone so Jordan is then never alone.
