I take a sip of beer from the bottle. It makes me feel ill that I push it away and walk off back towards my room. I feel queasy and dizzy as I get to my door. The stress of it all is getting to me again. I collapse on my bed half reading a text that Caitlin sent back but not really reading it. I started shaking and sweating. I don't know why but I was getting panicky about it. I sent a text but I don't know who.
HELP ME
I feel like I am cold shivering like I am. Am I having another panic attack or am I having a seizure? Or is it just my body reacting to a sip of beer but then on the cruise I was given a drink. It is has been six months since I last drank alcohol. Now I am burning up, I change into my flannel pyjama pants and take off the t-shirt I was wearing. I am still burning. What's going on?
I close my eyes and try to concentrate on breathing. I don't hear the door opening and someone coming in. I don't hear the footsteps coming towards me.
"J. Jordan. Hey!". I feel a hand on my shoulder. I feel my body tremble. " I got a message from Caitlin saying you sent her a message saying Help Me. She was worried as she didn't know what it means. Are you alright?". I shook my head no. I fully open my eyes. I wondered where that text ended up. There was Jon standing over me. "What's wrong?".
" Not sure".
"Tell me from the start".
I try to sit up but my body is trembling. " I came up here and spent an hour looking at a bottle of alcohol but don't know what. Donnie caught me and had a go. I went to have a shower then went downstairs to the bar. I ordered a beer and took a sip didn't want it so came back upstairs to my room. Where I felt queasy and dizzy. Then ever since I have been shaking and sweating. I'm scared I don't know what is causing this. It's not an attack, is it?".
"I think it's a panic attack but not sure. You feel hot". Jon picked up his phone and call someone.
" I'm the hottest member of the group".
"Don't start that again". I laid back down on the bed. Once I laid down I got up again. I tried to move out of bed to go to the bathroom. But I vomited all over the floor. I am never going to be ok, am I? What the hell is going? The door opened again, there were Donnie and Jared coming into the room. I then ran to the bathroom, I made it this time. I threw up again. I walked back to my bed and laid down again.
" What's going on?" replied Jared.
"You drank that bottle".
" No, I didn't. You saw me put back the unopened bottle back. How can you say that? Don't you trust me?".
"It's not the drink. I think it's more to do with his PTSD. I think it's stress related".
Jared picked up his phone and was talking to somebody. I was shivering again.
" Put some clothes on if you're cold".
"Too hot" I replied.
"I'm going outside for a minute. Can you keep an eye on him, D" he replied when on his phone "Mom..... " he walked out of the room. I couldn't hear any more. I wonder what he is up to. Same with Jared. I soon found out what Jared was up to when a doctor came. I started to get antsy but Donnie tried to keep me calm.
"Yuck! You all sweaty J" he said wiping his hand on my bed.
"What's he here for?" I replied.
"To check if there is anything wrong with you other than your PTSD condition. He might as well check your leg as well".
" Why? There's nothing wrong with me".
"Why were you throwing up?".
" Dinner didn't agree with me last night" I lied "What time is it?".
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Never Alone(Sequel to Back to Life)
Fanfic(Completed) Jordan Is now has slowly recovered from the effects of the accident they had on tour last year. If he is really going to recover he will need to find that special someone so Jordan is then never alone.
