Never Alone(Sequel to Back to Life)

After party 2: London

I stood there in the middle of the room in front of everyone with slump shoulders and my head down low defeated. I couldn't believe it that she ran from me. I know it was because of who I am. I wish I can be just me, not the pop star that I am. It's like its back to where I am twenty again where you're only seen as a pop star and not yourself. Then the girls only wanted me because I was a New Kids not just plain old Jordan from Boston. I standing here I am feeling those feels again. Our fame came to us fast and hard back then. Everyone went quiet when Caitlin ran. I think they are waiting to see what I would do. I slowly walked to the other room without saying anything and slammed the door. 

"Jon, go and see to Loverboy. I will go and see if I can find the girl" said Donnie putting on his hat and sunglasses. 

"Are you sure its safe out there?".

" I will be fine. I will take a guard with me. You saw how happy he was tonight. We need to do this or we will have a depressed J on our hands again. I can't do that all again". He went out with a guard. Jon went to sort out me again. Donnie got to the main part of the arena where the restaurants are. This is going to be a bigger problem he thought looking around the crowd. There was a girl sitting away from everyone else with her head down crying. Donnie makes his way to her hoping she was the one. As he did, she kept looking down at her phone and getting annoyed by the constant text messages and then her phone starts to ring as well. As he got nearer she was pressing ignore on her phone everytime it rang.

J: Why did you go?

J: I am telling the truth I am not married anymore

J: You have to believe me

J: I am not trying to make a fool out of you. I do like you. A lot.

J: 💔💔

J: I am so sorry

J: Oh OK I will let you go 😢😢

J: Bye

J: 😭😭😭😭

Then her phone stopped ringing and beeping with texts. She dropped her head down onto her lap and dropped her phone. Donnie picked up her phone and give it back to her.

"Here's your phone. Are you alright?". 

" Yea I am" wiping her tears away. 

"The concert wasn't that bad, was it?" he replied with a smile. She looked up at him. "He is telling the truth. He's been divorced for a year now". She still looked at him how did he know.

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Meanwhile, I was on my phone. When I couldn't get through to her, I screamed and I threw my phone at the wall next to the door just missing Jon as he walked in. He picked up my phone off the floor luckily still intact. I was on the floor with my head in my lap. 

"Here J. You Ok". I give him 'what do you think?' look. " She is not only the girl out there". Honestly really. I give him 'how can you even say that' glare.

"I felt something. Something is there" I muttered.

"I glad you're starting to be happy again but maybe she doesn't feel it like you do".

" I can feel it through her touch, I know she does". I wrap my arms further around my knees "It because she sees the pop star standing in that room, not the normal guy I was when we were having coffee earlier" I sigh. It hurts, it hurts so much. Sometimes I hate this popstar status and only seen as popstar Jordan not plain old Jordan from Boston. But I love performing maybe not at the moment with my anxiety. 


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Donnie was still with the girl in the middle part by the restaurants. He kept his head down as there were still fans around coming out the bars and restaurants. He couldn't afford to be seen by someone.