Saved from danger, MUD woke up in a hospital only to see Thaddeus taking care of her. While talking to Wayne, Mira and Jane entered. MUD pushed them away and ended Jane getting fired up and went to a rough conversation.
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"Sometimes, we need to feel pain. Dahil minsan, kahit alam mong masasaktan ka, masayang makaranas ng mga bagong bagay. Even though you'll be risking your heart and trust."
-Thaddeus
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"Okay na ako dito Wayne." Nag nod na lang si Wayne at naglakad na pabalik sa loob. Madilim na kasi at nagpahatid ako sa garden ng hospital. Malawak naman ito at may bench sa gitna.
May mga nakahilerang orchids sa unahan. Nakaharap ako sa mga iyon at nakatalikod sa direksyon ng Hospital. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nga ba ako nagpahatid dito. Siguro nga gusto ko lang makapagisip.
Why did I even say such things to Jane and Mira? For the past years, I made an invisible wall to avoid people barging to my life.
Hindi ko alam but it just feels so right. Or it wasn't?
It's true that I'm afraid to trust again. I'm afraid that I might end up betrayed again. Will befriending them worth the risk?
Nah. Hindi ko alam. But what if all those things, lahat ng pinakita nila sa akin..
What if all of those were just their schemes?
Paano kung kinaibigan lang nila ako for my wealth? Reputation? You know. Typical type of teenage dramas.
They didn't. Remember they put their selves in danger just for you. At the back of my mind, I heard my conscience said that.
Bakit nga ba kasi? Bakit sinalo ni Mira yung bullet na yun? At that instance, there's a possibility that she might die but why? Why did she choose to protect me?
Hindi naman ako yung tipo ng tao na madaling magtiwala. I've been betrayed that's why I'm afraid.
There's no point in denying it. I have trust issues and I can't just let other people enter my life yet. Friends or lovers. I don't have time for those and if I have, hindi ko rin yun pagtutuunan ng pansin.
It will be the last thing that I will do. Add the fact that they can be fake friends.
I covered my face out of frustration and let a groan out. When did I even started caring about other people other than my family?
"Overthinking about things?" I heard a manly voice beside me and I found myself staring at a familiar dark eyes.
"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" He chose not to answer and gave me a can of drink.
"Helping you sort things." I rolled my eyes. I don't even trust him.
"Leave me alone."
"C'mon Madeline. No evil intent. I just want to help you out." He said and leaned at the bench.
"Why are you even sticking with me? Is it because I'm MUD?" I raised my eyebrows when he chuckled like something funny came up.
"Don't get full of yourself. I'm used to popular girls around me so I'm not fascinated even though you're MUD."
Woah. Did I just met someone who's not intimidated by my name? Really new.
"Besides, you look like my little sister." I glared at him. So he sees me as a young girl?
"What? Am I that innocent to you?"
"You act, speak and think like her. Having walls to protect herself from the world? Afraid of getting hurt? That's just like her." My lips parted a bit because of amusement.
"I don't even blame you for that. You just want to protect yourself but.." He paused for a bit and looked at me.
"Some things are worth the risk." He smiled and it really gave me shivers.
What on earth is happening? MUD and Thaddeus talking with each other? No no.
"That's not true Thaddeus. And wait. Why are you even nice to me?" He chuckled again and stopped after a while.
"I told you. I see you as my little sister." All of a sudden, he patted me in the head like what Wayne does.
"So.. this sister of yours.." Napatigil ako since parang personal na yung tatanungin ko. But it's just a question right?
"Where is she?" I said. Minutes passed and he didn't even answer. So I thought of taking my question back.
"Neverm—" I was interrupted when he answered.
"She passed away three months ago." I was shocked and I really felt sorry for him. I shouldn't have asked.
"I'm sorry." Tumayo siya and looked at me.
"It's okay. I'm on the phase of moving on." He smiled at me and really, it felt like a genuine one.
I don't feel like asking about that matter further more so I kept my mouth shut.
"About being friends with them, what is your decision?" I looked at the moon and shrugged my shoulders. Despite all of the things that he have said, wala pa akong nagiging desisyon.
"You're afraid to be betrayed?"
"A bit." I said and started to move my wheel chair out of the garden. After a while, a hand gently pushed my wheel chair towards my room.
"Sometimes, we need to feel pain. Dahil minsan, kahit alam mong masasaktan ka, masayang makaranas ng mga bagong bagay. Even though you'll be risking your heart and trust."Napatingin na lang ako sa kawalan after hearing those words.
"So, I'll just need to risk? Like gambling without knowing my chance to win?" I asked. Nag nod lang siya as a response.
Oh no.
"I can't do that." I knew from the start that I can't have friends. I really should stop hoping.
"Madeline, masayang makaranas ng mga bagong bagay. Yung magkaroon ng taong mapagsasabihan mo ng lahat ng problema mo, matutulungan ka sa mga dapat gawin, and someone who you can make some crazy moments with."
We're halfway at my room but he stopped pushing my wheel chair so I gazed up at him.
"Kapag ginawa ko yun, mapapahamak lang sila." I said. Hindi ko nakalimutan na letting them in my life will also put their lives in danger. I am MUD.
I came from the Dizon family. Threats and fights are normal. But I know that for them, it isn't.
Maybe they'll freak out once a man points a gun at them or faint if a bomb suddenly showed up. I can't protect them. Ilalagay ko lang sila sa kapahamakan.
"Maybe you're MUD. But also, you're a lady. Having them in your life isn't bad." He said and I found myself facing my room's door.
"At least give it a shot. Be friends with them." With that he left with his hand in his pockets.
"Thank you." I muttered under my breath hoping that he didn't heard it.
"You're very welcome Madeline." I heard a response from him and I went back to my room.
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Heartbreaker 14: Friends
MUD finally lowered her walls for the two girls. Having the fliptop battle next week, MUD found herself trapped in a situation which she never imagined in her whole life.
Getting fired up, MUD received another flower and started to be curious who in the world A.T.M was.
Just right in time, Wayne brought news that surely blown her mind.
IMTMWBTHH
2015.
BINABASA MO ANG
I MET THE MAN WHO BROKE THE HEART BREAKER'S HEART
RomanceMadeline Mayumi Ulanie Dizon or known as Mud is the typical cold-hearted heart breaker protagonist. She breaks heart not because of a failed relationship or because she was cheated on in the past. And nope, her heart was never broken by another guy...
