Only You

twenty-eight

My home once again lit up with the pleasure of weddings. A part of me was so relieved after Dr. Khan declared he wanted to marry me despite our circumstances, but overall I was still anxious about what was ahead.

Currently, I was swamped in work at my office trying to get all my reports finished. I looked up from the report and stretched my neck taking a deep breath when the door flung open unveiling a raged Mariam, she looked at me as she slammed the door shut.

I knew what this was about and that she had probably found out what happened last night.

"You're going to marry him?!" She yelled.

"Please calm down, I can explain what happened," I said standing up.

"I don't need you to explain what happened. I fucking trusted you, you stabbed me in the back! I only wanted my husband back IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR!" She continued to shout,

"Mariam! Calm down!... I didn't do anything okay. I backed off. Dr. Khan didn't. He doesn't love you anymore. I don't know what you want me to do."

"I want you to leave! LEAVE HIS LIFE!" She said with her teeth gritted.

"What?" I said softly

"Humza is my everything. If you don't let me have him, I won't let you have him either."

"What about Haniah?" I asked

She hadn't brought up Haniah this entire time- when Haniah was the foremost cause she told me she wanted to go back for.

Her expressions paused for half a second before going back to this confident, anger one.

"Yes, I need my daughter back." She said.

"Mariam, I can't do anything. This wasn't my choice." I said in a low voice, slowly backing up to my desk.

Suddenly she grasped my wrist harshly and pulled me towards the door as she walked out.

"What are you doing?" I said trying to free my wrist.

She strutted toward the end of the hallway and then to the left. I realized she was taking me to Dr. Khan's office. The anxiousness grew in me as I felt like crying, I felt so feeble my head felt like it was spinning. I didn't want this, I didn't want to cause so much trouble to others and I definitely didn't want to hurt anyone.

Though I knew this had to be done. This was Dr. Khan's decision to be made.

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HUMZA  KHAN.

"I can't-" Huda said with a cracked voice, as I looked into her tearful eyes.

In that second I felt all my confusion fade and all I wanted to do was take that pain away.

Mariam showed up to my office last week, and that is where it all had begun. I was sure that I wanted nothing to do with her whatsoever. However, when she talked to me the memories had returned.

I loved Mariam immensely, the year we spent together was nothing but happiness, when we found out we were going to have Haniah I was overjoyed. Until we had Haniah, and Mariam left three days after. That month was the most painful month of my life. I had dreams to raise our children together, to wake up in the middle of the night together, watch her say her first word together, watch her laugh together.

All of it was taken away from me In a second without any explanation. I woke up in the night alone, I made her laugh alone, I played with her alone. The loneliness took over me day by day, and I couldn't help but detest Mariam. She broke me and left my daughter mother-less.