- Twilight- Sideswipe & Sunstreaker (under editing)

Chapter 53: talking

I woke up, Sunny was curled against me, he was awake and some tears rolled down his face. He quickly wiped them away and sighed "Good you're awake!" He said. I laid on my side and wrapped my leg around his hip. "Don't be sad..." I whispered, drying his cheek.

"I wasn't crying!" He snorted and closed his eyes. "Of course not..." I said, resting my head on his. "Are you in pain?" I whispered. "Yes! But it's fine..." he sighed. I felt his body cramp in pain. "Alright, shall I make some breakfast?!" I asked.

"I Uhm... I think I'll stay here... I'm sorry!" He mumbled and turned around. I laid against his back kissing his neck softly. "... but I can bring it you know..." I said. A weak smile formed on his lips. "Would you do that for me?" He asked. I rolled my eyes "yes! Cause I love you and I hate it to see you sad!" I stated.

He hummed while I got up "hey Sia?" He asked. I turned around and hummed "Don't tell anyone especially not my brother what I told you last night... he doesn't have to know about the pain I carry with me every day!" He said.

I nodded "alright love..." I said. A smile formed on his lips when I called him that "... and don't tell anyone about the tears! Only you are allowed to see me cry!" He grumbled. "Okay, Sunstreaker..." I replied before I left.

I was standing in the kitchen and made his favorite breakfast, last day after our date I had taken some basic things, but it was enough to make his favorite dish. Sunny smiled when I gave him the tray and sat down next to him with my own plate.

"Maybe you feel better after you ate something..." I said hopefully. "Maybe..." was his soft reply before he started eating. "...do you think I'm a monster?" He asked suddenly. "Of course not! What makes you think that! Don't listen to what others are saying! I know how you are and so does sides..." I said firmly.

"True... but I just don't get it why no one ever cared about me as you do... why was it so hard to give me a compliment... that's all that I wanted..." he said. "It's never... you did a good job Sunstreaker or wow I'm happy you're here to fight with us and protect a planet you don't even know!" He grumbled.

"Sure... I don't like humans... no offense... I'm closed, but a compliment does more to me than people think... I know I'm grumpy and especially in this period... but Ironhide could give me something... he always go to sideswipe... giving him compliments," Sunny grumbled offended.

"I don't feel they really want me around... I don't feel wanted!" I mumbled. "Is that why you're always trying to be better than the others?!" I asked. "How else should I try to have a voice in the group?" He asked icily. "Prime keeps me around cause I can fight! But he doesn't like me... he thinks I'm dangerous! He doesn't listen to me if I try to explain things! Sides is the one who does all the talking cause they listen to him more often than they listen to me! It's not fair I'm always fighting to have an opinion on something! And they don't even appreciate it! I'm sure they want me to shut up and fight! Nothing more!" He grumbled.

"But your opinion matters to me! I want you to be fair! I would never hurt you! It's not in my nature to hurt others on purpose and about what I said... you know me and you also know I care deeply about you!" I told him. "True... it scared me... I finally found someone who liked me... to be honest... that problem I need to deal with is a shame for me... I'm scared you will criticize me or bully me with it!" He said.

"I get it, sunny... you don't want anyone to hurt you again! And I'm sorry I pushed you but I'm so worried about you! I just don't want you to be in pain or unhappy!" I said. I saw it surprised him a little "your the first one who tells me that..." he grumbled. "And I mean it sunny!" I said firmly he smiled weakly "thank you... it does more to me than you probably know..." he whispered.