- Twilight- Sideswipe & Sunstreaker (under editing)

Chapter 68: Pain

I was lying sleepless on the bed, pondering why I couldn't bring myself to confront the twins. A sharp pain filled my entire lower abdomen. I had wetted the bed due to my bladder inflammation and should've changed the covers an hour ago when I woke up. I kicked the bedsheet away from me and looked down. Also blood. It could be either my period of my infection and I guessed the last one. I sat on the edge and groaned, wrapping my arm around my waist. Pain washed over me. It's not as bad as it was before, but still bad enough to make me nauseous. Ratchet told me I had to get through this. The stones are too small for him to remove but big enough for me to cause me these pains.

Some tears wiggled down my face and I had to lay back down for a second. I reached for my phone on the nightstand and called Sideswipe. "Sia?" He asked rather impatient. "Where are you?" I asked. "Busy," he replied smoothly. "No, Sideswipe... I am serious about it. Where are you? Why are you ignoring me for days?" I asked. "I am not ignoring you," he stated. "You know what, I don't want to argue about this. I am not in the mood. Can you please help me or what?" I asked. "Help you?" He questioned.

"Yes. If it doesn't take you too much effort," I scowled. "I am sorry I am busy!" He snapped. "You know what, screw your... I'll ask someone else!" I disconnected the call and rolled on my side, sobbing softly. I couldn't believe both brothers are letting me down. I thought things were going good between us. In reverse, I would have comforted them and support them. It's apparently too much for them to question how I am doing and if I need help. They're my boyfriends for Primus sake. They are supposed to support me.

"Sia?"

I looked up and wiped some tears off my face. Jazz shut the door and moved over to my bed. "What's wrong?" He caressed my cheek softly and wiped some tears off my cheeks with his thumb. "My stomach hurts, Sideswipe is being a jackass, I haven't talked to Sunstreaker's general and and I am ashamed of myself..." I stopped and sucked in a breath. "Please don't tell me what they are doing right now. I can't hear it, I don't even want to hear it," I muttered with a sob. Jazz flashed me a sympathetic smile and gave a small nod. "You know what, I will change your bed covers, then you take a shower, okay?" He asked.

I nodded and got up, hissing. Slowly, I stumbled my way towards the bathroom and took a warm shower which helped against the pain in my lower back and stomach.
Jazz stayed with me for a big part of the day until he had to go again. I stared at the ceiling, thinking about the twins and Nightshade. I feel like they're neglecting me. I got up and changed my clothing before searching for my twins. I spotted them in the hanger, talking excitedly to Nightshade. This feels like a bad dream. I didn't want to see her like a threat but I feel like she's a threat now.

"Duties, huh?" I mocked. "You shouldn't be here, bellezza." I perked my head up. "Mirage? I know... I just wanted to talk to them but they're busy." The spy sat down beside me. "Jazz told me how you feel. Honestly, you shouldn't be here," he stated. I looked back at the twins again. "I miss them."
"I know. Come on." Mirage helped me up. "Do they like her? More than they like me?" I asked. The spy sucked in a breath. "Honestly, I don't know. They were close friends in the pits but— I don't know. I assume they love you because you're their world. Perhaps they're just excited to see Nightshade again."I hope so..."

Mirage brought me back and I slept throughout the day and night. The next morning, I felt absolutely horrible. I wasn't sure what the cause was. The twins or my medical condition. Either way, I felt like I wanted to die. I curled up on my side, pulling my knees higher to my chest and closed my eyes, allowing the pain to wave through me. I would do everything to get some attention from the twins.

I opened my eyes as the door opened. I expected Jazz, but I spotted Sideswipe. "Hey..." I snorted and shot him a glare. "You're okay?" He murmured. "Don't you have anywhere to be? Doesn't Nightshade miss you already? That's her name, right?" It came out more hatred than I wanted.

"How are you feeling?"
"Changing the subject?"
"Sweetspark, I am sorry."
"Sorry, really?"

I didn't had the strength to sit up. The pain was too intense. 'Is she nice? You like her more than you like me? Because if that's the case you can walk out and don't come back.' He shook his head and sat down on the edge. 'I care about you, a lot and I don't wanna lose you.'

'You're on the right track of losing me, Sideswipe! You don't have to be here 24/7. I am not asking for that, but I did expect you to ask me if I am okay or if I need anything. Maybe be here at night? That would be nice. You just completely forgot about me!'

"I didn't forget about you. I truly didn't."

"That's even worse. You just decided to ignore me and assume because Ratchet fired me from the medbay I am doing okay!" I spat. "You're right, it was my mistake and I am sorry for that. I love you." I turned my head away as he wanted to kiss me. "No, you can't make this up with just a kiss, Sideswipe. Not this time.' He stared at me for several minutes. 'You're gonna stay mad at me?' He asked. "You ignored me!"

"No, it wasn't like that, Cas. I am sorry for the pain I caused you, but it wasn't my intension.' I snorted. 'That's bullshit, Sideswipe. You knew how sick I was and how much pain I had. It's all bullshit! I swear to god, if I find you in bed with that femme and you haven't broken up with me. I'll castrate you personally! You get that!' I jabbed my finger in the center of his chest. It was mostly the pain acting up. It made me moody. He rapidly nodded. Threatening Sideswipe wouldn't hurt him. After all, he deserved it feel scared. 'Don't make stupid decisions and believe me, I will figure it out.'

He laid down next to me. 'I won't cheat on you. I am loyal to you and you only. Nightshade is just a friend. No need to feel threatened,' he muttered. 'Seriously?' I spat out. He flinched. 'Just a friend? I haven't seen you for days! You neglected me to be with her all day and you're telling me I shouldn't feel threatened?!'

'Sweetie, I am sorry. Please, calm down.' Sideswipe pulled me back against his chest. 'Just relax, okay? I am here now. Sunny will be here soon too.'
'If I see him bell regret it. I am even angrier with Sunstreaker than with you!'