Nada

Checking Him Out

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The next day, after the guests had left, they all decided hanging out by the pool would be a good idea. Hoseok was thankful he was already in the water when Y/N came out and let her towel drop on the floor. She was wearing a sport bikini, so it wasn't too revealing, but honestly she could've worn a scuba suit and he still would've reacted. She carefully climbed into the pool and swam towards him, spinning around excitedly.

She loved water. She wasn't a good-looking swimmer, she looked like a floundering duck, but she didn't care. Just being in the water sent shivers down her spine and made her feel content and at peace. Hoseok smiled at her, glad that the water didn't make his erection obvious.

"Wanna race?" Jungkook cannonballed into the pool and then popped up, sweeping his hair back and grinning at both of them. Hoseok shook his head but Y/N was off. She lost but she didn't care, it was all about the fun and spending time with her friends.

Eventually though they were tired and climbed out of the pool, joining Jin and Yoongi who were reclining in pool chairs and soaking up the sun. Hoseok reached for his towel and turned to pick up Y/N's and offer it to her...only to see her staring at him, looking very focused. Or rather, staring at the lower part of his body. He panicked for a second and looked down but....no....nothing. Or rather...well his swim trunks had dipped kinda low from the weight of the water. He looked back up at her, down again, then smirked. When he looked back up again she was blushing and looking at his face now. He cocked an eyebrow, she knew she'd been caught, but he didn't say anything.

But it made him feel...good. Because it told him that she found him attractive. Because god knew he definitely appreciated all her assets.

In truth, Y/N had been thinking for quite some time. It had been a couple months. She knew at some point it was normal to move things forward. She was the kind of person who needed to get to know someone before developing a sexual attraction. And she definitely knew Hoseok. So it made sense that, as their relationship progressed, she found herself thinking more and more about being completely vulnerable with him.

Because she would be. Sex would lay bare the last of her insecurities, the ones that had been targeted and used against her before. It scared her to let go like that, to give up control, to trust someone like that again. But a small part of her was excited also, because trusting the right person makes all previous pain worth it. Taking that final step, it would mean Mordecai really did not control her. That he had lost.

She seemed lost in thought the rest of the day and Hoseok finally brought it up as they laid in his bed. He was still trying to figure out why they had separate rooms, because she always seemed to be in his. She'd even fallen asleep on him last night. He was playing a game on his phone and she was absorbed in a book she'd brought that looked....like something both she and Namjoon would enjoy and he would not.

"Hey, are you okay?" He asked quietly. She put her finger on the sentence she was reading to remember her place and turned up to look at him. She had her head resting on his ribcage.

"Yeah. Why?"

"You've just seemed..." He tried to think of the word. "It looked like you've been thinking of something hard all day." He rubbed between her eyebrows. "You've been making your thinking face."

"Oh, have I?"

"Yeah. So what's on your mind." She didn't respond right away, looking down at her book. When she did though, he choked on his own spit.

"Sex."